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new facts

2010-07-03T19:18:00.004+05:30

Soujourn this time ended up being a lot longer more so the fact that i have been more preoccupied with work and also that there have been quite a few developments in life which have stretched me a lot till i managed to somehow strike a fine balance between the two of them. Finally for those who are not aware, i have decided to move on in life and settle down and walk down the aisle on the 29th of Aug 2010. Will post more details as the time goes by. Life has been going too hectic and it seems like its now time to settle down and get down to concentrating more on making things right in life.

Hopefully in the coming days things will settle and i will get some time to blog ... overall just wanted 2 share the news of my impending marriage with friends .. take care amigos .. adios

Life @ Weschool

2010-05-23T20:03:00.004+05:30

Dimaag Jab Khaali hota hai to use Devils Workshop kehte hai .. One of the best things there to do is to keep your brain occupied in some thing or the other so that it does not have anything wherein it can wander and get lost ...

Time tha .. no new movies also .. socha kyon na likhoon maybe about the last 3 years of my life .. how they have shaped me as a person and made me much more different from where i was ...

Kya kya nahin dekha in 3 saalo main .. both on personal and professional front .. Main hamesha bolta hoon likhunga but bhagwaan jaare jab likhe ka time (waqt) aata hai tab mere paas time nahin hota aur jab likhne ko dimaag chalu karta hai tab saala net nahin chalta .. Kya tragedy hai baap life main, bole to .. ekdum waat lag jaati hai ... vaise ek cheez ka zindagi main ehsaas hua ki kabhi kuch fixed nahin hai .. jo aaj dushman hai voh kal dost ho sakta hai aur just happened 2 read the news on Ambani Brothers calling it a Truce. Poore desh ko chooona lagaya, nichoda, paisa kamaya aur ab ...

Reliance ka Ek Hi Sapna, Sab ke Baap ka MAAL (MONEY) APnA

Chalo no more digression on this, uske baarein main phir labhi likhunga .. ab to mere dost ko diya hua vaada poota karna hai . Circuit this ones for you ... :) .. Lage Raho :D

now going back to circa 2007, it was just the 1st year of a new job .. decision to leh chuka tha life main .. padhai karni hai .. Kuch nahin to Market main apunka value to badega aur kuch na sahi ..... (how foolish i was) aisa kabhi hota hai .. aur hota to har koi aisa hi karta .... anyways that was not my but yes did hear that from a friend about market main value and stuff .. things i never bothered to concentrate on... The objective was to gain some knowledge .. pata hai apun jyada teer nahin maar paayega .. but imaandari se thoda bahut kuch seekh loon jisse hamara khud ka aur auron ka bhi bhala ho .. No use jhdofying all those wacky lines when in the end u know a shit of what all u have spoken .....

chalo .. ab meri life ki story ...

Awesome building .. class main pehla lecture .. bada audi ... kaun kaun hai kuch nahin maloom tha .. bas sab bhed bakri jaise bade se ek kamre main the .. i was more into sirf hi hello .. vaise bhi kisise baat nahin karta tha jyada kya karu ab tak sharam aati thi baat karne unke saath .. Kyonki Dil to Baccha hai Jee :) sirf ek ladki ko jaanta tha kyonki voh mere saath mere pehle naukri main saath main thi ...

Initial ice broke, started interacting with all and from the huge classroom we came and were herded into our respective classes .. vahi se shuruaat hui apne 3 saal ka safar .. pehla mahina hua and came one of my biggest losses .. lost mom and was totally heartbroken .. something i cud never have imagined would strike me in life and leave me devastated .. Quite a few shoulders came along offering, solace and help in this crisis time and i am grateful to all for having given me shoulder to lie down and something i was more than happy to hold during the biggest crisis in my life .. thats when things became clear .. Jo pehle meethi meethi baatein kartein the aur baadmain kya pata tha ki kisi ek din peeth main chura bhok ke ghayal kar jaayenge .. Roz shaam ko office se college ek suhaani si company hoti thi mere saath .. dil khol ke jise main baatein karta .. jhagadta .... :) thanks dear for being a wunderful buddy :)

1st sem done and i had a small bunch of people with hom i got along well .. sab ke saath ki ghul mil gaya tha .. jaan pehchaan badane laga .. Koi acchi bhi lagne lagi but kaash .. story chalu hone ke pehle hi khatam ho gayi and that was the end of my love story .. :) ur ek dhakka khaya dil ne .. aur sambhalna chalu kiya .. aapne aap ko .. was staying alone so used 2 be preoccupied with work and studies and college .. got indenpendent and started experimenting with cooking ... Exams aaye aur tab public ka asli rang aaan chalu hua .. pata chala kaun kitne paani main hai.. Thode logon ko khushi hoti hai auron ko pareshaan karke .. ek hi sawaal ke liye DUS logon ko phone karke .. agar kisi ko pata hai to pls mujhe batae .. aur end main jab result aaya to pata chala .... yeh to saala scholar hai .. strategy accha banaya ... btw humein subject tha strategic mgmt 6th sem main aur thode bande 1st sem se hi ismain maahir the.

Aur ek sabak mila tha ki billi aur kutta pyaar bhi kar sakte hai .. is baat ka mujhe tab ehsaas nahin tha aur badmein aane waale kuch saalon main hua ..

jaise jaise waqt badta gaya aur kai saarein chheezein saamne aane lage aur unmain se ek tha ki kisi pe duniyaa pe itna vishwaas mat karo ki tum unhe apne baarein main sab kuch bata doon ..

vaise life ne thoda bahut chaukanna bana diya tha ki life main kuch bhi fixed nahin hai .. pehla saal khatam hua aur chalu hua party ka safar .. had a wunderful time with friends and that started the foundation for a good long lasting friendship .. something we decided we all will spend a good time having dinner and building some good cherishing moments ..

Dil bechara beech beech main fisalta tha .. kya karein nadaan jo tha .. kabhi yahan kabhi vahan .. bas kya jaane kisko dhoond raha tha ..

sem 3 and came university papers .. chapluso ki sena bad rahi thi aur jise dekho use laga tha professor ki chaplusi karne main .. thode logon main to competition tha ki kaun sabse jyada sawaal karega .. whatever DAMN the question maybe .. khud ki life ka question bhi aa jaata tha clas main .. cant help .. some ppl r liek that ..

aur beech main kuch aur TP chalta tha .. hum baithe rehte the peeche aur nazaara dikhta tha .. kuch accha nahin tha sirf yahi tha ki hum samajh na paa rahe the ki jo hamarein aankho ke saamne ho raha hai aur prof ke naak ke neeche voh kya tha .. kabaddi , footbal .. ya "kaamshastra" ka koi chapter !!!

vaise jiski jindagi hai jaise chahe vaise jiye .. humain unse se kya .. hum jaise hai vaise khush hai ..

university exams happened in the 3rd sem and came the core subjects in the 4th and 5th .. work started 2 get hectic and slowly started building pressure .. core subjects main se thode to bouncer gaye .... aur time laga samajhne aur phir auron ko samjhane main .. life acchi thi .. rlaxed chal raha tha .. finally came the last year .. btw forgot to add .. in between had a few more memorable occasions wherein we all friends met up for dinner , lunch projects .. occassion to bahut the ..

3rd year to jaise bhaag raha tha .. itna tez ki hamien taqleef hone lagi uske ksaath speed banaye rakhne main .. in the end that too was wrapped up and in Style .. was shocked myself @ having topped the exams and took some while for the feeling to sink in that ihad finally for the 1st time in my life .. topped the exams .. this not only shocked me but the rest of the class as well on how the HELL could HE TOP !!! People would speak so sweet in front that no one wud ever doubt that behind my back they wud be the BIGGEST BITCHES anyone would have ever seen.. anyways happy whatever i got

in the end came the last sem .. which meant that our 3year association with the college was to come to an end .. ab sochta hon .. ghar jaldi to jaa raha hoon .. aur kaam bhi kar raha hoon but voh khushi na rahi .. boring lecture main sona , chocolate khaana .. meri baaju waali ko pareshaan karna aur uska TM dialouge " Chupp Bass" :D

Seriously wonder how mischevious i became in the last sem and enjoyed every lecture as a wunderful moment .. finally i did also manage 2 gather courage to tell her what i wanted to and something i will be very happy for .. May god bless her :)

n then came the exams .. finally all done .. all khatam .. ab to sab apne apne life main busy hai .. life ki cycle to chal chari hai but then the meeting and all... lectures .. fights .. taunts .. back bitching ...

Now where life goes and where it takes us is dependent on what we make of it .. am sure we have a wunderful bnch of batchmates each of whom in their own way is at a level wherein he / she can help better the life of another by helping them on with their professional life ... I sure am planning to help people get a good workplace where they would be able to make the best use of their abilities.

Some people are just tooo MUCH .. 3 saal kaise nikaala samjh nahin aata inke saath aur abhi bhi pareshaan karte rehte hai ... god pls save me !!!!

Looking forward to being in touch with most of the batch if not all for i am sure that somewhere in life we will surely cross paths and also that somewhere we will need help and why not take it from those whom we know well.. Thanks GOD for giving me a wonderful bunch of friends and wunderful memories which i am sure i will cherish all my life .. Thanks !!!

Thank god for the wunderful friends whom i have made .. and whom i troubled a lot .. at times was too rude .. Angry .. aur kitni baar chillaya .. but that was all coz i know they were true buddies and on whom i could dare to be the way i wanted to be without even thinking of what they would think ... Thanks buddies for bearing with me ..

Adios amigos .. NO Good Bye .. Phir Milenge Chaltein Chaltein

City of Gold

2010-05-16T18:56:00.002+05:30

Happened to watch yesterday City of Gold, Mahesh Manjrekars movie on the problems mumbai faced in 1980's on account of the mill workers strike and how the whole area which was the heart of the mill movement in mumbai was transform,ed by greedy mill owners aided by good for nothing politicians in to a commercial district which now is one of the central hubs of businesses. LIke all manjrekar movies, the story line is based on real life instances and has since been changed to suit the masala mainstream blockbusters that seem to work out in the theatres.

The movie was well made though had its share of cliches .. in all a hard hitting movie more so for the facts of harsh reality that was once common in those times that it protrayed. Its a sad state for people to spend money like water and waste enormous amounts of it while holding back from the mill workers their rightful share. part of this is to be blamed on the government and the greedy politicians who turned a blind eye to blant violation of policy and then helped the mill owners instead to make more money rather help the workers get their righful share

Hope that the new breed of so called GEN NEXT Politicos believe in working for the people and not just become a symbol of broken promises as the politicians are generally found to be

Though hard hitting and shocking in some ways, a good watch to help you a bit more humane and considerate in case you are not ...

Unusual things

2010-05-15T23:51:00.006+05:30

Life has been going on its own .. making me thread more of the unknown path that life has been taking me along as it has been over the past few days .. Thepast few days have been more of a shocker for the things that have been unfolding to me leaving me dumb and a mute spectator to the events that have been happening in life. Also happened to watch a few movies across the week which made me aware of reality which i was quitely being ignorant to .. a good thing thatfilm makers have come of age and have been handling subjects with a good level of maturity.

To start with .. some things close 2 heart that i wanted to write ..

Do we actually think before loving someone .. Is it the mind who has the final say or the heart which holds sway over the emotions .. Love is something which develops in our heart and then encompasses you completely in itself ... a feeling in which u dont just think anything .. not let ur mind do any talking .. Just let yourself to submerge urself in the emotions and enjoy whatever comes your way .. why mess things by thinking on whats right and whats wrong .. let heart handle it and it will never take u the wrong way .. for its true 2 u .. knows u completely unlike the mind which is conditioned accoding to social customs / traditions.

Do we need reasons to like someone .. things in between strike us and then we start loving them for the person that they are .. the human being as a whole .. all feelings of the heart which u would only xperience when you fall in love ;)

why then do we end up loving someone who holds our hand when we r going through a bad phase .. much so the same reason that we at that time there is nothing else which comes in our mind and all we can think is care, support and more often than not tend to end up falling in love with the person who gives us a helping hand

and here we become too selfish giving scant regard to what other feels but just become too possessive which in a way ends up messing the complete relationship

my take on this ..

if you have feelings for someone express it to that person, then forget ... It will help u be a lot lighter and a much better person .. The more we seek answers for our actions the more mess we create inside ourselves and leads to a too confused state of mind .. The mind does not answer what the heart wants and the heart does not want the mind 2 overrule its actions.

Seen a few people go to extreme levels in the recent past, by their acts which i could never ustand. Maybe like one of those emotional levels they have been in which i have never been so could not understand how it feels to be in that place, though i know for sure that all they tell me is that its not a good place 2 be in.

If you know someone is going through a bad phase, do support the to be normal .. they will thank you for the rest of their lives for being with them when they had no one around .. and for supporting them to be normal.

in the end its our goodness that counts and what shapes up our destiny and in a way helps us have the GOOD things in life .. so why not be a bit selfish .. help someone for sure that the goodness will also brushon you and god forbid may u be in trouble u will have not one but 100 hands to help you in life during your troubles ..

aaj thoda mood :( hai .. maybe kuch yaadein yaad aayi .. things which happened with those around is what made me sit and write down whatever i have noticed ..

I hope this will help those looking out for answers to whats striking you ....

Happy Reading :D

Finally i am back

2010-05-12T22:51:00.003+05:30

As i now sit back on time and look back .. What strikes me most .. Memories of the past that has happened to me or things that i have encountered in life and which have helped me look at life in a different perspective.

The pain, the happinessness .. a mixture of feelings as i look .. I even ended up ..... something which i did not ever feel i would .. but i did and i am happy i did .. though that did leave the other wondering on what idiotic thing has bit this guy that hes started speaking in such a way .. well thats the beauty of life .. when u expect things to happen the most. it leaves u in between mind F*****d wondering on whats hit u and before u realise its all done

I just had my final year MBA exams .. n a few project submissions to be done .. something which i have been hoping for long would never end for its been a lot of memories and experiences that .. something which i will cherish all my life .. not as much as for the good memories that it brought along but more so for the lessongs that i learnt from those not so pleasant encounters .. Call it Bitching, Back stabbing ,, .. Gioody Goody .. Have seen it all .. How soon people change their moods and how soon foes turn into friends and a lot more ..

These three made me a lot more conscious of the fact that life is too different and something i will look forward to being away from in the future (the unpleasant ones)

ending this one here and till be posting in detail on many things in the past few days ..

hope 2 stay n touch

Few Months Sojourn

2010-05-12T22:01:00.004+05:30

its been a long time since i spent time with her and rightfully she was pissed off on me not giving her any attention .. High time i feel i need to give attention to those around me especially those who have been with me all around. The last two months have been a tad too hectic .. something which i had not actually envisaged especially the extent till which i would b strained and drained of my energy .. Making ends meet at both the extents is something which i have always been ready for but like they say, u are never prepared for the unexpected till it actually hits u.. So finally i had to get back 2 her .. My Blog .. :)

What else were u guys wondering .. Will be more regular and active in my posts ..

Hope 2 keep u bored ... :)

Separation

2010-03-20T23:40:00.002+05:30

We humans never realise the importance of things in life till we loose them .. We behave outrightly foolish and let go of all the treasures that we posses in life. this is more so happening and thats something which of late is making me sit back and decide where is life going .. or should i say where are we taking it

It takes ages for a relationship to develop, blossom and years for it to develop and all along its a growing process. Many a times things hit a rocky phase and thats when perseverance and understanding between the partners show and thats what help in making the marriage a happy and prosperous one.

Compared to this, look at how easy it is for someone to call it Quits .. in some communities its just a matter of telling few words or even for that matter not even in person but even over the phone.

In all communities, separation is a lengthy emotional affair and needs to be thought of before deciding to call it quits. Thats something which never ought to happen with anyone in the world, for it only only separates the partners but with them creates a large gap in the lives of people which at times gets filled in or in some cases never gets filled in.

May god grant happiness and prosperity to all in their respective lives so that even the thought of separation never comes ..

33% Game !!!

2010-03-10T21:46:00.004+05:30

News ChANNELS AND PAPERS ARE ALL FULL OF NEWS ITEMS on the womens bill reserving 1/3rd of seats in all elected legislatures for women. In all the Hu Haa that is being shown on TV with every party claiming an upper hand in getting this passed, the whole idea of the bill is not being served .. This was one of the 1st of the many steps in bringing about removal of the gender discrimination which we indians have done for so long ..

The real benefits of this will be when females are treated as equals in all respects of life and their views / voice taken in the various decisions that people take .. their views are heard and thought about and implemented in practise rather than just being heard through an ear and removed through the other ..

looking forward to the change in the mindset of the people not just in the rural areas but also in the urban areas .. This also includes a lot of SO CALLED EDUCATED MALES who think it as their birth-right to thrust their views on the womenfolk in their house / any other area of influence.

hopefully change will come in all and lead to much better growth for all of us ..

Atithi Kab Aaoge

2010-03-07T23:32:00.002+05:30

Atithi Kab jaaoge .. thats what we dread the most coming of guests at home since thats when they create most of the probs in our otherwise normal schedule and make sure we carry out arrangements for their comforts.

enjoyed the movie with dad and had a good time catching on it .. the movie is a total family one with lots of humor being thrown in between. something we all should lay our hands on

enjoy watching the movie

Hard take @ life ..

2010-02-21T21:11:00.004+05:30

finally i am here to bore u again .. not that i am bored as someone told me the other day, i even blog otherwise when i am not bored ;) just that life's going through a lot of things and due to that i am going slow on some things in life and blogging sadly happens to be one of them. I dont have any excuses for what i had once decided i would other than my own inability to cope up with so many things in life .. either i happen to not utilising the time best or i am doing too many things i should not be or not getting them right. anyways plan to work on them in the coming months ..

quite a few things i had lined up though i am not sure what i would write it down here though i plan to all that i can recollect.

Coming to things on me .. the year has started on a good note contrary to what many told me especially on account of the fact that the eclipse which happened at the beginning of the year was supposed to be one which would bring ill effects for people born in my birth rashi. Whatever it may be , i am thankful to God for his blessings which have given me a lot too reasons this year to be happy for .. 1st being my topping the class in my MBA Sem V exams and the second being the recent one wherein i was promoted in office to a higher grade. Thanks all especially family and friends and my well wishers for praying for me. My success in life would have been incomplete without you all

coming to life and how it is going .. things r cool .. though a tad too hectic .. the last sem in college and the work pressures makes one work a lot towards making both the ends meet. Hoping for these 2 months to pass away soon and easily without causing much of discomfort or disruptions at work / in college.

Now coming to what made me sit down and take out time ..

With my college coming to an end in a few months and things at work also looking a tad too bright, colleagues and family has been running after me to get hitched .. not that i dont intend to just that i wanted to get time to finish things i had started to in life and with studies being done one of them is getting over giving fuel to the thoughts thats been burning in the minds of most of those around me.

Its been a hot topic and something on which many people love to argue and give their views for getting hitched and why others should and why they dont think they should not .. I prefer to keep out of this .. I have my reasons and logic for my decisions and think its appropriate to let them be with me ..

now coming to those who want to , had a colleague telling me that i should also get hitched .. it seems more appropriate that the other person is also a part to the some troubles in life that one is currently going on ..

Now coming to those who dont, quite a few people who choose to subscribe to this view that its a lot better to be single .. either past experiences with self / with someone close .. I respect their views and believe every1 has a right to decide on whether or not to take the plunge into matrimony

apart from the above .. like always we have people who prefer to sit on the fence and jump to either side depending on which direction the tide is flowing ..

Though marriage is considered by many as an institution in which trust happens to be a major force driving the whole thing, compatibility, understanding and other factors come in and together help keep the institution firm and going ahead .. lack of any one of the factors leads to a shaky relationship and which starts to show its troubles by frictions between the partners concerned. Have seen quite a few instances and recently there has been a spurt in the no of instances wherein there has been infidelity in a relationship. A few friends seem to have come under this view that with so many things going wrong in relationships around , it does not make sense coming together to lead life ahead a stranger and about whom you hardly know anything .. Five fingers in any1s hands are never same and thats the same with relationships as well .. What has happened with one need not happen with all ..

There are no problems in the world which do not have a solution and thats true with most of the problems in life as well .. Many a times we are no bogged in our problems that we hardly care to even think on the solution even if the same is there right in front of you ..

Quite a few that i have seen from those around. Things dont generally bother me .. but then at times things do come to a standstill .. mind gets zappped getting aware on things .. things we always though happened in movies also happens in realities .. No offence to anyone .. any person or community but yes .. it does pain to learn that a female in her early adult years is made 2 marry a person whos old enough to be her great grand father .. more so for monetary gains ... recently had a chat with a friend when i came across this and many other stark realities which left me wondering where are we going .. in our quest for personal satisfaction and selfish motives, we are going to so high a lenght that we end up sacrificing a persons life and future in the greed for money ..

On the outside, India seems to be a modern vibrant country full of modern values and cultures .. while as we know more about the country and the people in it .. things deep inside still are same .. Exploitation happens still in large numbers in the guise of equality and righteousness.. The northern part of the country seems to battle the problem of low female sex ratios which is an evil brought into by mankind .. female infanticide / MTP of the girl child in the last 3 decades is what is leading to this problem wherein its now a business to get in brides from places which are high in female ratios so that the progeny can go ahead .. Hopefully things will change and the mistakes of the past will be corrected.

Though i am more so an optimist and tend to have a +ve attitude towards issues that come in front of me, i had no words to xpress my shock at whatever had struck me. Not that it was something which i was totally unaware of but then we humans dont believe in things till it happens and strikes us ..The same was the case with me .. This is prevalent across religions and none can be singled out for being oppressive to the rights of the fairer sex

Just to interrupt .. saw the ad on Sony India for the serial "God Bharai" which talks about a female being outcasted at the "god bharai" function of another for not being able to have her own child. In this age of technological advancements there are many who believe that children are gods gift and humans dont have anything to do on this .. perhaps thats the reason of the countrys ever increasing population .. Complete faith in god

ps : i am not aware on what exactly the serial is about, just a thought that came in my mind on watching this serial.

i have a subject called Business Ethics in which we are supposed to learn about ethics, morality and the like .. What more can be said for the falling moral standards in the people around .. Extra marital affairs are in plenty and seems to be happening by the dozen .. Quite a few around with people i know well .. thats creating a negative perception in the minds of my friends who looking at him think that marriages lead to this and thats a reason he / she is choosing to keep away from such things. TO each his own , but then its not right to base ur views on the life of someone else who is not an ideal person who be even though as an example.

People n relationships especially the illegal / unethical ones claim they are in love .. more so those who are in extra marital ones .. now that makes me seriously wonder on their definitions of love .. It does not good to anyone calling LUST as LOVE when people all around know what the reality is .. Its like the tale of the Cat who drinks milk with eyes closed, assuming that no one notices the cat drinking milk. I personally dont care for whatever anyone does in their life, its their BLOODY F*** Problem, what bothers me is when these people claim to be the holder of the righteous way of life. Never claim to stand for a value which u cannot practise in real life.

In the end would like to state, Each one of us is responsible for where he / she takes his life to .. Every problem in the world has a solution, if not there would not be a problem in the 1st place. Look around and you will find the solution waiting for u to take it and get rid of lives problems. I hope we all make do make good informed choices and lead a happy life ahead .. God Bless All :)

My 1st time ..

2010-02-08T23:02:00.003+05:30

Life has been giving me a lot of twists and turns plus the last sem of MBA has been more of tiring and exhausting. Daily lectures plus other things to do has been keeping me a lot on my toes and making me run around a lot. This has left me with hardly much time for anything else leave alone blog.

Finally got some reason to be happy for myself, something i am proud of.. My 5th sem results happened to come and that brought along with one of the biggest shocks of my life something which i am slowly coming to terms with but which i know many would find a tough time coming to terms with .. How the BLOODY F******* Hell did he manage .. that too in the last sem .. call it luck, hardwork .. anything that u may want to .. in the hand very happy on my efforts and especially at this age :) ... atleast i am not that old for studies.

I managed to top my MBA class Sem V securing 381 marks out of 500 giving me an aggregate of 76.2%. I am very happy more for the fact that the studies this year were just a day prior to the exam like i have been doing every time just that i havent done anything major for me .. This was just the Semi-Final and the Final awaits me in May for which i will now prepare very well ..

Happy at the end result and there i was for the 1st time in all my student life feeling elated for having been the class topper.. There have been too many shocks and surprises due to this to many especially the fact what i mentioned above .. an underdog like me coming out of the blue and topping the class.

Overall thankful to all .. esp ma friends and family .. for their blessings and care n concern ..

hopefully will be back to blog soon .. till then adios amigos .. thanks once again ..

New Year Special - Jungle Safari @ Kanha

2010-01-24T21:20:00.006+05:30

Hello Amigos .. been a long time since i have been away .. Quite a few things in life keeping me away from my love .. but then had other priorities as well to attend to and then in the melee lost track of things.

Life was good .. New Year was spent @ home, warding off the evils of the Lunar Eclipse which had set sight on the world that day.

With a view to making this trip memorable, was out to Kanha National Park, around 150 kms from Jabalpur where i had planned to visit to catch a sight of the Tiger which was protected in this Jungle. The trip was a gr8 one for me .. being so close to wildlife is an altogether different experience and though we could not manage to lay our sights on the King of the Jungle, we sure did get to c quite a lot of wildlife..

Kanha 2009

it sure was a wonderful experience both the enroute travel with friends and also the stay in the Jungle. The climate in the winters that we went was too chilly and something we Mumbaikar's were not used to ..Overall it was a welcome break both from the hectic life of Mumbai and also a very good time to spend some in the lap of nature

That was all i am blogging now on .. Quite a few serious things i need to write on but then not in the right frame of mind as well .. Plan to do that in the next 1-2 days .. Till then Njoy the snaps

Divine Experiences

2009-12-06T22:51:00.002+05:30

Life was for a major point of time going the routine mundane normal way with nothing new happening and that was one reason i was away from this place and was busy putting things in place @ work and getting to finish all pending stuff. Did not get much time for myself and hence could not spend time here writing things i generally love doing.

Last week happened to one such break that i got wherein i could spend time for myself and with family something which i off late dont get too often. Dads currently in Udupi busy attending the weddings of my relatives whose list seems to be increasing as the days goes and which end up delaying his return to mumbai. Finally this week had been to udupi and it was then that we realised that somethings in life are not controlled by us and its just that we play the roles for the act which is not scripted by us.

Landed in Mangalore on 2nd and that happened to be Margishish Purnima which is also the pratista divas of Mulky Shri Venkatramana temple. It is on this day that the idol of Lord Ugra Narasimha is removed from the well where it is otherwise kept and abhishek of coconuts (tender coconut) is done the whole day. A few lakh coconuts are offered as abhishek to lord to cool off the agni that flows from his idol.

Legend has it that a few centuries ago, a swamiji of our kashi muth was on his way to mulky and then asked the madhava brahmins staying in the way to light the way so that he could complete the journey at night. They refused and he said that "Lord Narasimha " will show the way. it seems that there appeared a idol of Lord Ugra Narasimha and the heat of the idol burnt the houses of all the madhava brahmins who had refused to ligh a lamp and the light of the burning houses showed guruji the way to the temple. The fire continued for some time and it was finally extinguished on the request of guruji. To avoid any such instances it was decided that the idol will be kept in the well which is in the temple premises and the idol will be removed only during the particular purnima.

Its an experience which i had never experienced and believe its gods grace that i was a part of the divine experience and was able to watch the abhisheka of lord narasimha at the hands of kaivalaya math swamiji. It was all a sudden plan and that made me more confirm the belief that not all is in our hands.

In the evening paid a visit to the lord Krishna temple, and sought blessings from lord for all at home and family in general. The wedding i had been to was a good occasion for me to meet all long lost relatives and also get to spend time with my close relatives many of whom i was meeting after a long time.

The only thing about this trip was the fact that i was blasted by my relatives for my stance on certain things and i finally consented to what they had in store for me. Looking forward now to some things eagerly, things which will shape my future and life ahead.

Finally getting ready for another semester in college the 6th and the last of my 3 year studies, the completion of which will give me some time for myself .. much needed ..

Five Down One to GO

2009-11-23T22:33:00.003+05:30

hi

finally its been the end of 2.5 years of hectic studies and have now 3 more months to go.

The sem was a pretty ok one . too too hectic but ya quite a lot of things happening at work and at home which made me too tight and life past paced. Finally have been done with the exams and now waiting for the next sem 2 wrap up so that i can get on to work ina fast paced way and get to do things i may not have been doing over the past few years.

over the weekend managed to catch Kurbaan and it was a good experience. The sensual scenes between the lovey dovery very much in love couple " Saif & Kareena" were a damp squib except a few passionate kisses which were for too short a period to make an effect on anyone other than the actors themselves. The Terrorist angle is an old one and Amrika seems to the favourite bashing ground for all.

Do catch a view of the movie for some pretty good acting by Viveik Oberoi and kareena for a change did try her hand at acting.

Saif as the cold blooded villain also plays a good role though Viveik rules the movie especially the 2nd half when the action starts to hot up

Overall a good movie though a lot left for the making. A tighter editing and faster paced movie would have helped.

Songs are good and are soothing to the ears not to the eyes.

Do watch .. is what i can advise .. Either u will fall asleep or Be out sympathetic

Njoy ... :)

Jail - The movie

2009-11-09T00:04:00.003+05:30

Finally got to watch the movie JAIL, the one starring Neil Nitin Mukesh n Mugdha Godse. A very true said account of how things happen when the times wrong for you .. Just shows how gruesome life can be at ties for no failt of yours .. in the end what pays is the perseverance and faith in GOD

Kudos Madhur for showing a very good story line of how things can at times go wrong and what a person experiences. Hope no one ever goes through such an experience in life. Manoj Bajpai as the silent support for Neil does an extremely wunderful supporting role. Many a times in life we go through many tough times and thats when people like these our friends matter, especially those whom we can rely on for support and they are the ones who grant us the inner support and strength to deal with those tough times in life ..

Hope you do get to catch the movie .. Happy Viewing .. :)

Exam Time

2009-11-07T23:24:00.001+05:30

Its exams again .. finally getting to the end of Sem V and another 6 months to go before i wrap up my three year MBA course .. Works getting hotter and so is the last few months of college.

Will not be active online more as i got to also pay attention to studies and get to score decent marks

happy reading friends ..

Gods Own Country

2009-11-02T21:26:00.005+05:30

Its been a long time since i have sat down 2 pen thoughts and things that have been happening with me of late. Life's been going good and things have been going a tad too hectic .. its been quite some time since i got to late some time for myself, to give my stressed out body some much needed rest and comfort .. The stress was taking its toll and hence i felt i needed 2 take a break to get away from the hustle n bustle of the city. A welcome break happened last week on the occasion of my friends marriage which took me down south to Gods Own Kerala - Kerala.

The flight was with my college buddy n his wife which made sure that i had some company on the flight of 2 hours which otherwise would have been spent more in admiring people around and the pretty gujju air hostesses who were giving us company on the aircraft during our trip of S2 423 to Kozhikode. The trip to gods own country was a pleasant one and in between i happened to land myself to an issue of the airlines in-house magazine which had many articles on nature and wildlife an area i am slowly gaining interest in and planning to use my qualities and abilities to the maximum.

Of the many articles it had there was one i glanced on in detail on Kanha, a tiger reserve in MP which is renowned world over for its tigers. The reason i caught fancy to the article and read in detail was due to the fact that i am travelling to the jungle in Christmas this year with friends planning to catch a sneak peek of the tiger which is said to roam freely in the habitat.

Now coming back to the trip that i had .. This was my 1st trip in the heart of gods country and all my trips earlier were just to out temple town of Manjeshwar where we do go every year whenever we visit udupi to pay our regards and obeisance @ the temple of Lord Anantheshwara which is the pride of the town.

More than being friends wedding it was also a part of the destiny that had laid in store for me .. plans for showering blessings in Gods Own Country a land known all the world over for its beautiful landscapes as also for its renowned temples. The trip home from the airport to the sleepy town of Edappal which in the words of my friend is both a Town as well as a village .. mixing the best of both .. A town with a population of not more than 30k in all and all that we could find most common were the GOLD shops which littered the town like they were normal provision stores. Gold seems to be a BIG fascination for every keralite and the testimony of that is during weddings like it was during my friends.
It was GOLD free flowing and it seems to be more a norm created by society than a ritual that anyone who comes 2 meet the bride or the groom comes with a small gold rink or chain and in the end once the visitors are done with the groom is left with so many gold rings on his fingers that he could give Don Murugan a run for his money.. That in a way explains why GOLD still remains expensive even in recession times like .. Beg Borrow do whatever u want but adorn the groom with GOLD .. a Safe n Stable investment .. Dowry is not demanded by the grooms side but more spelt out by the demands from society which applauds and cheers those who dole out more gold than at times even the weight of people ( a too big exaggeration) but then things down south especially in matters like this are too touchy and senti ..

Having landed on a friday evening left us with ample time to rest before landing at our friends place for dinner which was one of the best authentic mallu meals i had .. Nothing great in the food its as simple as any south Indian dinner would be, what was special was the love and care which went into making it .. something which was done by my friends mom whom i have been in touch with regularly since college that's 7 years ago .. and who has always been there eager to cook for me in the same way that my mom would have done for me and others.

Saturday morning was time to pay regards to the lord and we landed up at the feet of Lord Krishna the presiding deity of Guruvayoor temple. We were blessed to be witness to the lord being taken on elephant back all around the temple and believe that in a way was an experience for me worth cherishing. It also happened to be a time for me to sit back and pray to god asking for forgiveness for all the wrong things that i may have done in my life. Like they always say, never be ashamed to confess in front of god since thats the only time in life u get a chance to own up to ur mistakes and seek forgiveness for all that we may have done in life.

The wedding next day was an even more memorable affair all thanks to some accidents and other events happening which led to delay in we leaving for the wedding a tad too late and landed just in time for us to witness the tying of the Thali (mangalsutra). This was one trip we sure will remember all our ages. Nariyal Paani Treat by our friend which came after lot of hearing that he had to from my buddys wife and not to mention the taunts that we had to shower on him to have the treat done.

No doubts on the hospitality that was showered on us .. It was the best that we could have ever had .. Thanks buddy for the wunderful experience ... It was a pleasure visiting Gods Country and seeking blessings at all the temples that you made us visit ..

That was in short .. my visit to the heart of Gods Own Country.. Happy Reading amigos .. Ciao ...

Happy Diwali

2009-10-19T22:12:00.002+05:30

Hi Friends

Wishing all a Happy n Safe Diwali and a prosperous New Year. May all your wishes and dreams come true this year.

Diwali this year has been special one since i had dad at home after 2 years spend time with us and in our own small way carry out diwali pooja at home. spent most of my holidays at home and had a wunderful time.

looking forward to many such experiences in the coming period of time.

God Bless All .. Happy New Year :)

Whats ur Rashee

2009-10-10T23:56:00.002+05:30

Whats Your Rashee ?? After a long time had been for a movie .. albeit a sponsored show which was being organised by a friends company as a gift to their employees as a gift to them for the work put in by them in the current year. Paisa nahin dete but isi bahane kharcha dikhake tax savings batate hai .. Benefits both the employee as well as the employer ..

Now coming to the movie, Its based on the zodiac sign and has priyanka playing 12 roles each denoting a particular zodiac sign. The movie had its good and bad times, especially in the message that it sought to convey under the guise of the various rashees.

The movie is about a NRI gujju (harman) whose grandpa makes a will willing his property to his favorite grandson. The grandson giving in to the families demand for marriage agrees to meet a new girl of a particular raashee which will then help him make a choice. He continues meting girls of every rashee and which make him know some features about females of the particular raashee. In the end the suspense is lifted off by which time most of the viewers in the movie has taken a run especially from the movie which at times does seem to be a bit tooo bore.

Finally he gets the lady of his dreams still guessing though till the end.

Watching this movie did make me ponder whether whats shown there really does exist ? Not sure if its true for all but yes it does seem to be true for quite a few of them.

In India we still has a tradition of having kundlis matched and only then is the marriage proposal taken forward. Though there are both sides of the coin view for this topic, i prefer to stay out of this. I believe it does help to an extent by helping foresee whats in store for the couple and accordingly influences the decision of both the parties. What i liked in the movie were some things which i would like my partner to possess. Not penning it down here, keeping it for the keeps maybe for the someone who happens to fit some of the qualities i am looking out for.

its been a good weekend spending time with dad whos back home after a 2 month sojourn. Marriages in my extended family are happening by the droves which does make me wonder everyone seems to be in a too BIG hurry to get hitched (i am not one of them).

Planning to watch Wake up Sid this tuesday when there is a holiday on account of the elections being held in Maharashtra. Shall blog on it once i happen to watch

Till then . Tc amigos ..

My love

2009-10-10T23:04:00.002+05:30

Its been around two months since i met her .. Life has been going through so many tough phases especially with work and college going nuts leaving me hardly with much time for doing anything else but studies. Though it was a easy in the beginning but then slowly started feeling lonely and then missing her especially since she was someone with whom i could relate to very well and also get to share my worries, tensions, feelings .. et all. The wait was getting longer and then finally felt it was tooo long a time to wait and finally here I am .. after around two months i am back with my love .. my very own sweet blog .. for those of you who were wondering that something else was in store .. happy reading .. Hope not to have disappointed you ...

I have always been saying that i shall be more active but then somehow or the other i dont tend to make up time for things in life .. hopefully with the next few days being a few lighter, plan to be more active so that i can spend more time with my love.

Will try and have small posts coming which is good for me and also for those out there who do pay a visit every few days to my blog .. thanks buddies for your support ..

Kaminey

2009-08-17T23:33:00.003+05:30

Kaminey.. Thats what everyone including me was waiting for with bated breath. Fwine Flu phobia in Mumbai and pune delayed the watch but the experience waf furely one worth waiting for. Muft fay d movie did not diffappoint the hopef one had with the movie.

Pardon me for the use of F instead of S but then that's how the movie has been shot. This is an actual good movie which does make u sit back, relax and enjoy the movie. Add to this the seats in PVR Phoenix where i had been had extra large king seats which made the whole movie watching experience a truly relaxed one.

Coming to the movie Kaminey, d movie rocks rite from the 1st scene and its GO. Fast Paced, full of suspense, romance, violence, swearing, Sex, name it and the movie has it. Charlie and Guddu aka Mr Sanjay Kumar Sharma are the two main characters around whom the whole movie revolves. Sweety whos guddus sweetheart of two months and also happens to get her home science wrong and end up being pregnant .. that just reminds me of the popular saying .. Whenever u have sex .. Have Safe Sex .. The blackmailing, fights , arguments between Guddu and sweety do show various emotions a couple happens to go through in life. Bhope is a funny character who happens to be sweetys power hungry apna local politician and who shows his true colour of making money by any means just like many others in his ilk have shown and is a true replica of how our politicians are.

The movie also shows the very good old friend of our Netas the cops who are infamous for their activities rather than being famous. The movie goes through many twists and turns and in the end gives give a twist 2 its finale .. Overall a very good rightly directed, tightly scripted and a fast paced movie which does keep you guessing on its story line. Unlike Omkara this one has seen a very different vishal though retaining the dark movie cult which Vishal by now has got associated with and been famous for as well.

Personally loved Sweety not much for her appearance and pelvic thrusts but for the fact that she loves her hubby the most and also the fact that hes the world to her and one person for whom she will fight with the whole world including her own elder brother .. Bhope .. Would love to have a wife life her ;)

This one sure deserves the rating that has been assigned to it by the papers and a worth dekko by all. Do catch it soon ..

Cutting this review short, (i did eat a few lines) need to wake up early tomorrow to catch up pending work .. Hopefully tomorrow shud be a much better day especially since i have a heavy noon lined up with travelling between offices. Gud Nite amigos .. Hope you enjoyed reading my review :) as much as u did enjoy watching the movie .. I sure DID .. Bonne Nuit .. Ciao ..

Lohagad Aug '09

2009-08-16T21:16:00.004+05:30

We have a group of people in office who have formed a small group where we all come together at regular intervals and go for treks. The treks are generally to forts nearby by to Mumbai and kept as a One Day treks so that we get as many people as possible for the same. This has been going on for the past few months and is now gathering steam with more and more people slowly joining the list of regular trekkers. I am a dormant member of the group who prefers to join for the treks which are simple and not so tough but avoiding the ones which are tough. Part of this has got to do with the fact that i am scared of heights still 2 an extent though not as much as i was earlier but also the fact that with college also being there on sundays, i cant make it even though i may want to go for these treks. Its been around 8 treks till now and i have managed to be a part of around 2 of them.

One of these weekends we had planned for Lohgad which is a fort built by Shivaji Maharaj and located around 110 kms from Mumbai near Lonavala. The journey this time was a different one as we had also the spouses of those who were married joining us for the trek which was in a way to make them also aware of what their better halves are upto when away for treks. How easy it is to go to such treks and what all is done apart from Bird Watching. Along with office friends, i also had my college buddy join us with his wife and brother and who have a good knowledge about the forts in an around mumbai and who have been trekking for a long time. The snaps are a testimony of the climate that was there atop the fort as also the wonderful time we had roaming around exploring the various parts of the fort.

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A detailed writeup on the fort is here >> http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lohagad

Do enjoy the view and the snaps .. Adios Amigos .. Looking forward to having more people for the next trek being planned in Mid september 2 Sinhagad.

Weekend Brunch

2009-08-16T17:28:00.007+05:30

It was a long time since i have blogged, much contrary to what i had been writing on keeping in terms with what i had decided as part of a self imposed rule but then i think i need to follow them more diligently. Hope to make more concerted efforts on that.

Finally something bit me dunno what and here i am blogging on things happening around after a few weeks of having disappeared in this world bogged down by work and other events taking a major part of my days time.

Yesterday on the occasion of Independence, a few of us all college friends decided 2 meet impromptu and go for a long drive and spend time having lunch.. we finally did manage 2 meet and then head off roaming around in Mumbai and then finally heading 2 Navi-Mumbai to up with an old friend and then go out for lunch. What started as a location hunting ended finally in we heading to Panvel for lunch @ Himalaya Punjab

It was a well laid out lunch at a bar which generally is full but was otherwise on account of it being a DRY day was almost deserted. We had a good sumptuous feast of vegetarian good and non veggie food with one of my friends feasting on a meal of Pahadi Kabad, Chicken Chilly and Chicken Liver all roasted. He sure is one buddy i will always remember for being the guy who inspite of being from a conservative family, loves to feast on various non veg delicacies the latest being Turkeys and loves to Gulp as much as spirits as one can .. Hats off 2 u Buddy ..

It finally ended in the same good steady way that it had started in the morning. A welcome change and a reunion we friends had after a long time ..

Planning some more things in the next month .. its all Hush Hush for now .. Waiting for the final plans 2 fall in place. Till then .. Happy Reading amigos ..

Surprises Galore

2009-07-25T23:21:00.002+05:30

the week which passed by has been one full of surprises for me both on the work as well as personal front. I am still waiting for the facts to unfold to me before i decide on doing anything. As of now its status quo and the wait is on.

Personal front its been a wunderful week more so since there have been quite a few changes in my life and which i believe will impact now the way i will lead my life ahead. Also came to terms with some facts which i had always believed go the other way for me. I have always been telling others to avoid wearing black since its generally considered to be not a so good colour. Over the past few days have been wearing black trousers to work and then have been having tension free relaxed days. Has this got to do with the dress i am wearing, my mood during the day or just another co-incidence. This is something i havent still found out but then ya something i want to over the coming week and then try and get a solution to the answers i have in mind.

The events occurring just made me wonder whether Black is good for me or not .. She anyways cribs when i tell her that she should not wear black while another friend detests not being allowed to wear black on account of objections from family. I do not generally wear black trousers except on few days .. Though restricted to trousers and then a complete NO to wearing Black Shirts .. Maybe a superstitious belief but then the last time i tried wearing one i had a very bad experience and would never do something like that again.

Now coming to the end, planning to get some hold on all thats been dancing around in my life. Maybe time will need to come around for me to get a clear picture and then sit about putting things in the right perspective and their rightful places.

dats all amigos for 2nite .. Wish you all a gr8 weekend .. Njoy .. God Bless

Thoughts of the past

2009-07-19T22:03:00.003+05:30

Today happened to be moms 2nd anniversary and looking back at the time which has passed by could not realise that its been so long .. looking back at the times still makes me shiver especially that fateful day of Aug 07 and the ensuing events thereafter. The thoughts i had on the KF flight or during the road journey i had undertaken to reach udupi amidst the heavy downpour.

Life sure has come a long way and i am very thankful 2 my friends specially those who have stood through me through my thick and thin and have helped me cope up with this phase in life. thanks a lot dear .. Things have become more different and have got adjusted to a life wherein we have got used to living life on our own and being independent to carry out things without waiting for anyone.

that's all for now buddies .. hope to get some time 2 sit down and post on those things close to heart. wish all a gr8 week ahead .. Adios Amigos ..

Traditions ..

2009-07-12T22:01:00.004+05:30

Customs , traditions and so many other things which we are always told we need to follow and also do it religiously. How many times do we sit back and actually decide whether we actually need to follow something. This is done by all of us either unknowingly or knowingly .. like i avoid wearing full black clothes.. I wore a black jeans n a black tshirt once and then had a very bad day .. Not to mention the earful i had received from Mom for wearing a Black Shirt n Black jeans. Since then i never experiment with my clothes especially with black clothes. Have been wearing black jeans though its a NO NO for black shirts ..

Though for guys the restrictions are not so much as they are 4 females still don't think there is much difference. When both are treated equally in all respects of life why should there be any discrimination in this respect. My view on this is that give the other person the independence that is required in life and dont impose restrictions. All of us are wise enough to understand the gravity / importance of our actions and will take all steps to avoid misuse of it. I know i may be an odd man out in this world voicing my views the way i do them but then like they say not everyone is same and hence there are bound to be differences. Not adding much here, though i know all would agree with whats stated ..

Hopefully with the changing times, enlightenment will dawn on those who still believe in following age old customs and traditions or restrictions on wearing western clothes or even for that matter going to the parlour (for gals). We may not be able to change much of what has been happening but we surely can go and change what the future holds for us.

Now coming to something on me .. have been having a gr8 time .. enjoy spending my saturdays out and atleast doing something i like .. being with buddies .. With passing time, things are slowly moving in the comfort zone and me happy with the way things are turning out in life. To say it short .. life surely is going gr8 ..

Cutting this short as i need 2 hit bed .. Overall a wonderful end to the weekend .. Saw Shortkut a while ago . will write though on it some other time .. Till then ciao amigos .. Adios ..

Fun in the rains

2009-07-05T10:25:00.007+05:30

I am back after a short gap .. Have been a bit too tied up.. My apologies to those who happen to pass by my page daily but then be :( not finding anything from me .. I had initially planned 2 write something ever week but think can manage this once a fortnight .. Though will try and be more regular .. thanks buddies for inspiring me to write

Many a times we love doing some things which we did do when we were child .. were totally uninhibited and used to enjoy doing such things .. as we age restrictions set in and we are told not to do such Childly behaviour for its not considered to be decent enough for elders to behave like children. Yesterday happened to be one such day when i had let my hair loose and enjoyed playing in the waters and getting wet just like i did it in my childhood days ..

Monsoon in Mumbai has its many moods .. at times it plays truant and does not rain for days while on other days it rains like HELL bringing the whole city to a grinding halt. Just like one would expect a child to behave when he / she throws a tantrum and then brings the whole house to a halt. It rained like hell yest non stop for around 16 hrs and today not a drop of water. The area i stay in is one of the low lying areas of the city and it always floods here when it starts pouring. For change had got to finish work a bit early and then went out to catch up with a friend of mine. Bracing through the rains and the enduring wait, finally got to catch a train which luckily was not too crowded considering it was raining and also that it happened to b a Saturday.

Like most Mumbaikars i hate sitting in the train even when its empty and yesterday was no different . It was a near empty train with many seating places, still preferred to stand by the window and get wet in the train and feel the cool breeze and the rain droplets which brushed past me against the speed of the train. The journey though short was a good one and did enjoy this experience .. Getting down at Andheri and then d ensuing walk though the flooded streets just made me go back in memory especially remembering my childhood days when i freaked out in the rains. On the way wading through the flooded lanes of the city paid visit to lord like i generally do every Saturday just to help ward off the evil from my life and of those close to me which includes my family and those few people special to me in my life

Now as i sit back writing this post, i still am unable 2 figure out .. what was more special yesterday .. Me playing in the rains on the way back without any botheration of what anyone would think of me or was it anything else .. Something which i will ponder about and find out .. Nyways that wont come here .. :-)

Having reached station and feeling the mouses running inside me, i sat down to munch on a Vada Pav the staple food of most Mumbaikars and which gave me some opportunity to kill the time i had on hand before the train came. The heavy downpour which was coming on us had led to flooding of the roads and the tracks which lead to delays in the running of the locals.

Reached my place a bit late and by the time i came out to the main road could make out the whole area was flooded and the water on the main road was as high as my waist. Finally after wading thru the water reached home and had a bath to try and remove any germs i may have carried .. Who wanna risks getting affected by Lepto, the main reason was to give some rest to my aching bones and legs and also become fresh after this long exertion.

Finally was very happy at having spent the day in a way i had always wished to but never imagined .. It all happened so quick it took me time to notice i was playing in the rains and dancing in the water puddle..

Thanks for giving me much wonderful memories which i am sure i will always cherish all my life .. Thanks once again .. Looking forward to having many more such wunderful memories in the time to come .. :). God Bless U ..

Thats all for now Amigos ..Adios .. Shall try and write something soon ..

Memories ..

2009-06-14T11:18:00.003+05:30

Memories always seem to be playing a game of Hide n Seek. They make us feel lonely in a room full of people while on the other hand feel too happy even in a room with none around. Thinking on the pleasant times makes eye watery, more so on the fact that we generally cry when we recollect those pleasant memories in life and not more when we recollect the sad ones. A few of them did come in my mind over the past week, more so on account of the fact that the last week has been one of the more happier times that i have come across in quite a long time ..

For those who were expecting that Bells were going 2 ring soon for me .. Need 2 wait .. I am too hard pressed for time so wait for a few more things / years .. till such time that i put things in place and be ready 2 become the BAKRA

Overall a good week with many things happening and also getting cleared . Looking ward to a wonderful week ahead .. lets c how life goes .. and takes me through its twists n turns ...

till then .. Adios Amigos .. :)

Happiness

2009-06-13T23:00:00.003+05:30

The week which went by has been a fulfilling one more so for the fact that i have slowly got to accomplish what i have always wanted to " Be an Eraser in the lives of People" rather than the Pencil which writes the path. Being an eraser helps remove sorrows and problems from their loves and which is in a way helping me become a better person.

Now coming 2 happiness, its either been Few instances of Happiness in Large amounts or Multiple instances of happiness in small amounts. Have had a mix of both but what has mattered to me is multiple instances of small amounts of happiness as that not only keeps giving u happiness but then also helps and avoid u from being too low

Thats also one reason life has been going smooth as such and not much reason or cause 2 worry on things not happening or not fallin in place ...

A small post for the day .. Just a few lines.. Will try and b regular nowadays though with college starting next week think would hardly get time ..

Adios Amigos ..

Few Thoughts

2009-05-20T23:46:00.002+05:30

Nothing much just thought of penning down some thoughts which were shared by a friend of mine who had been for a session with a Development Organisation :

Some of these things are those which i already knew and had already shared with those close to me and have always been advocating.

1 - Open up to your confidantes / Close Friends on topics which are close to you esp your Secrets. The weight of carrying on with the baggage of the past is much more and it weighs down heavily on both your mind and conscience. Speaking out not only makes you feel much lighter by emptying your mind and heart out but also helps you carry on with life with much renewed vigor and with the help of your friend / partner help you go on with life in a much better way.

2 - Dont worry much about things which have happened in life. The present is what is important and which needs to be taken care of. Dont spoil your life thinking of the past for the water which has flown will never return back. The one which will flow can be shown the right direction and can be accordingly routed through like our life.

Be Optimistic.

3 - Be Patient

Never loose your patience and most importantly do not loose your hope. Hope though is a small word but has lots of power and is what runs around in all of us helping us carry on with life especially during the tough times in our lives. Patience is an expensive commodity and is too hard to find around. Its is something which we inculcate in all of us and comes with time. Just one advise buddies .. Never feel that you have lost hope in life for hope is one thing which makes all of us live another day. Build up on your patience if you fall short of it .. Believe in God and he will guide you through the tough times. God is slow but not cruel. Trust him and he will surely grant your wishes though late but surely he will.

Something i wanted to share .. Hopefully will get to share more of these small things in the coming days .. My Perspective on things in my life and those around ...

Gud Nite amigos .. Adios .. Ciao ..

Confused in love

2009-05-17T19:48:00.003+05:30

How many times have we got this feeling that we are in love and this is the person i have been waiting for all our life .. And then out of nowhere comes a person who just shakes u out of ur dream and makes u realise that what u had earlier was just a dream and this is Reality .. The love feeling changes from the known to the unknown and the heart now yearns for love care and affection from the person who's now walked in our lives and swept us off our feet. Never felt it that way ever in life but then it did strike me when i spoke with a friend last week and then hearing it out was something that i just recollected that something which i had never imagined.

life has its own ways of making us tough and this is one of them .. What hurts most is that hits us when we are going through a pretty good time. The shock caused and brought about by the change in facts is something one never fathoms and then when it hits u one is all but LOST trying to make sense of whats happenin in life. Never happened with me for its never struck me that badly .. like they say it hurts when u love someone not when u flirt ... and for me its been more of the later rather than the former so ensuring i have a happy heart :).

So what does one do when pushed in to a situation wherein u r shaked out of beliefs by events happening around and which makes u actually wonder if this is what u wanted out of life. Like they say every coin has two sides, life also does. Just that many a times we do end up making a choice which we think is right but then later on as life moves on do we realise that lifes not the way we wanted it to be and thats when it pains that we made a WRONG choice. Stuck in a choice we have made, there is not much that one can do either stand up and fight to make a change to life or let life dictate its terms and then silently follow what life has in store..

Being destined or as they call it FATE is one thing and living to make a difference .. two things that come to my mind when i think of this .. everyone has their own take on things and all are right to their stand .. No comments .. nor do i wish 2 add my stand ..

Have come across quite a few people who have been through this phase in life and then all have chosen to go with the other phase .. let life take them where they want to and then go ahead with what life has to offer to them. As time passes off and life starts going slow, people age and the memories of the past the time spent with the loved one is something which fills the heart and the gloom that follows later. Thats when it strikes the most especially when it feels that Life would have been a lot happier had we stuck on to things earlier .. Thats if it ends up the gloomy way .. Fighting it out to have a better life and one that ensures that glooms out is what i have seen my close friends do and something which has made me happy .. faced with imminent defeat they still had the courage to go ahead in life and still try and make a difference to life .. even though it may have had its tough times .. perseverance and patience .. think both mean the same are qualities a person needs 2 have and this is something which will always help us wade our way through storms and choppy waters.

Now What happens if we end up the happy way .. Life still always keeps its memories and the moments will always be there in the corner of the heart where it may not come up daily but then when it comes up it does make us think a lot about how lifes going and then about how life now is much better and how thankful we are for the choices made by us ..

A Novice in these matters of the heart, my experience on this is what i have seen around and encountered at some point of time in life . Been two days since i was trying to finish this and finally got my lazy bum to sit at a place and finish this off .. something which had been bugging me and something i was sure i had to finish soon ..

I know this has been a combination of quite a few things .. Cant help with so many things dancing around in my so small head .. making space for things has been something which has always caused an overload on my memoery and at times breakdowns which have taken time to settlw down .

This is also i have had to bore u 2nite .. Wills surely be back with something soon .. as early as the weekend with some more musings from my side .. Till then Njoy getting Bored .. :)

Adios Amigos ..

Lazy Bones

2009-05-01T18:51:00.004+05:30

Life's back to its mean old ways leaving me at times guessing on whats coming ahead or in store for me. This leaves me at times puzzled while at times esp when i have an idea of whats gonna strike me and hence decided to be much more calm and composed to be ready for any eventuality. Now coming on to things which have been bothering me Quite a few but then will not be able to write on all those things out there. Some things are better kept under wraps. before your Grey cells start thinking on whats troubling me there is in fact nothing. By Gods grace and blessings from elders life is all good .. with nothing there to trouble me rather than the occasional issues which keep coming up in between.

Happened to watch Jodha Akbar after a long time, a Magnum OPUS. I wont be blogging on the movie since that took take from me what i wanted 2 write about. Something that i liked was a particular dialogue which was like " Its small amounts of happiness that matters in life rather than anything else". THis also seems to be true in our day to day life as well. But then somehow we tend to forget the fact that as humans we need to display care and affection to members of our family something which may not mean much for me but then it surely does mean a lot for them. eg : A Husband telling 2 words of Thank You to a wife or appreciating how she is looking will mean a lot more to her something which will not be even fulfilled by ten people praising her for her looks. But then GUYS being GUYS will never tend to recognise or appreciate this fact and that in a way leads to stress and issues coming in life.

Life's been funny for me as well especially the past few weeks .. Being done with exams got some time for myself and then things started coming in between on and off. In a way have become lethargic and lazy to do work the proof of which is the fact that i am writing this post after 3 days of when i should have ideally finished writing this .. Call it lethargy or general feeling of the mind which leads me to feel that its not worth the efforts ..

Been spending some time catching up on movies and documentaries which have always interested me but then i never got time to watch.

Now one of the reasons for me to write this post.

Many a times in life we base our opinions without fully understanding the state of the other person or even bothering to ask them for their views or opinions.Something of this sort did happen to me and then i did have a not so good time getting to terms with what was in store for me. Something that has still made me a bit :( and also sceptical to a major extent in communicating with them. Hopefully with passing of time should be better and be able to bridge the gaps which have been created. What this experience taught me was never to ASSUME on anything and then in the end make an ASS of yourself. Its our tendency to base our views on our perceptions but then we forget that like the 5 fingers are different no human in this world is unique and hence we cannot group all of them together in a basket. Everyone needs to be treated differently something which i know for sure i will always keep in my mind.

Coming to me and myself, things are good. Exams are finally done and now have some time for myself to give to work and also time to spend for myself. Its hectic at work as well as personal life. Nothing exciting happening just that been busy trying to put things in their right places and get some time for myself so that i can do and accomplish things i have always wanted to do. Many people say life's very cruel for them especially the fact that all that they have been wanting and wishing in life always seems to elude them. Thats also been the case with me but then i believe in the fact that there is a time for everything in life and i will have my day like they say " Every Dog has his Day". No regrets on the way things are shaping up in life and am happy to let them fall in place at the pace they should be. No point hurrying in and then messing them up.

Last week was one full of holidays and also one wherein i got to VOTE and colour my finger. Not sure much on what the state of the country will be in the coming days with the competition to be PM rising and every tom dick and harry jumping on the bandwagon claiming to be the BEST Ideal candidate. No one in the lot has anything to tell us the youth nor have any concrete plans on how to isolate India and if not possible atleast control the damage which is going to hit the country on account of the overall recession brought about by the US Sub prime Crisis.

A Bit sleepy and then also have a headache so will be wrapping this up. Works gonna be too hectic from tomorrow atleast the whole week. Looking forward to spending some time in the coming week to write on some issues which at times bother me.

Till then .. adios amigos .. ciao ..

Back after a Longggggggggg Breakkkkkk

2009-04-26T00:27:00.002+05:30

Back after a long break .. had Exams and was tied up studying for it .. In the end Managed to catch up on leave and then get to study .. Will be back in a day with some posts and stuff whats happening in life around me .. and also with those related to me ..

Till Then Keep Waiting .. Adios Amigos ..

Happiest Day of my Life

2009-03-28T23:30:00.003+05:30

Hopefully my words should bring out what the feeling in my mind and heart is today since i do not think i will be expressing it better in any way whatsoever. I will be guarded in what i write since thats one of the premise on which i started writing .. Never to speak the names of any people in my lives be it good or bad ..

Now coming to the New Year ..Hindu one .. The start was a normal one .. spend time at home after a long time and then had a good time helping dad cook for the feast .. A sumptuous meal we had prepared on the occasion of Gudi Padwa. The day went off well with no college s well to bug me and i had all the time to spend with Dad and home working on my comp and finishing my notes. a normal day well spent .. Happy at the end of events .. as the day came to an end i was blissfully unaware of what was to strike me a few hours later .. something which i had never imagined and what was supposed to be the most happiest moment of my life.

Got up late as usual, these days been getting up around 7:30 instead of the regular time of 6:30. Too lazy to get my bumm off the bead and keep lie down snoozing my cell alarm which keeps beating Nasik Dhol every few minutes. Finally tired of the beatings i get and i make others listen to i wake up. Today was no different and got up late, and sat down to checking my cell inbox which by then had something in store for me .. something which was going to lead to a significant seachange in my life and something which i had not even imagined in my wildest dreams. I just happened to logon and then got hooked on .. What happened later was a roller coaster ride and finally it ended after a lot of twists and turns. In the end .. I was happy .. There were many things that happened and in the end i ended up having a realisation of a fact something which will always be with me all my LIFE.

Considering my promise to friends, i wont be blogging on any personal stuff. Something i have decided i will never do. All i can say is that with this, I have seen a lot of changes happening in and around me and that has led to me being what i am now. Those who know the facts know what i am referring to and for those who don't .. Keep guessing. This is something very few in the world who are privy to and have access to my life know of.

Now coming to today .. All i can say is that i have never been so Happy and content in Life. I have had my share of joy but then today was something different and which will never ever happen to me again. Sorry folks that's all i can share. I don't intend beating around the BUSH and prefer keeping facts straight hence the above. Wanna bask in this joy and happiness for a few days to come .. till I am kicked out by someone who makes me c the better part of life.

Its around 12:20 and my eyes have slowly started to fall to sleep. got a lecture tomorrow so need to hit the bed early plus some mails to send .. Adios Amigos .. Stay n touch ..

Happy New Year

2009-03-27T16:18:00.004+05:30

Hi

Wishing all a Happy and Prosperous New year. Today happens to be the start of the Hindu New year, 1st day of Chaitra. Been wandering in thoughts these days much so to the extent that at times have been getting uncomfortable and suffocated on all that i have been holding on inside me. We all go through our phases in life .. the good times and the bad ones as well.. Though its the good that we always cherish the bad does make its way in between just to at times make us realize the fact that life's not smooth and there will always be a combination of both the good and the bad.

Now coming 2 dis post, its been a roller coaster ride with me. I have always been a support to my friends whenever they needed me and have always been a shoulder for them to rest their heads and share their issues and then get it solved. Sometimes been wondering whats happ to my problems, how do i get them off my heads. In between resolving others probs i have not got much time to speak out on things bothering me .. I am also human and do have my own share of issues just that these days its been not bugging me that much. There are some things which do come in to the mind but those are then stuff which also get off soon. Something i learnt the hard way is not to let your problems bog u down, instead always maintain your cool and be rational / practical in life that should help resolve most of the problems in life if not anything else.

Before you people start figuring out that i am bogged down by load and loads of stuff .. Chill !! I am purrfectly fine and doing gr8 in life. its just that i also do go through phases in life like others would be going through. Have a wunderful bunch of friends who have been with me all along and who have helped me get over some of my lifes problems. Like they say .. Friends are an integral part of life and are in anyones life the most cherished.

Coming together all along has made us more understanding, more informed about each other and hence in a much better position to take care of each others lifes issues. Times been one of the most important factors especially since its taken a long time and patience to be where we are now.. Thankful to god for giving me people whom i can always fallback on anything in life.

Just happened to speak with someone and hence found that person relating to me the same things which i have written in here. Just made me realise that somewhere i also have such people in my life and its just that i have never acknowledged the contrinution they have made in my life. Like they say its both ways and this phase the last few years have made us much better friends ..

Not getting too emotional on this .. Many people would anyways be wondering what i am upto .. but for those who know abt me what i am referring to.

Just to update those especially my sweetheart doctor, I am now tipping the scales at 70kgs, thats a drop of around 7-8 kgs which has come over a period of 6-7 months .. Planning to get more in shapre now and be firm on what i decided i would do.

Thats all for today ... Since it happens to be a new year thought will acknowledge the contribution some people made in my life and who are responsible for what i am today ...

Adios Amigos ... Enjoy the weekend and cya soon ..

Passing time

2009-03-22T21:02:00.004+05:30

Hi Its been a month since i blogged .. always wanted to but then something or the other was there and never got to take out time for blogging .. Quite a few things i have been thinking of but then those always get forgotten in the grind which happens in my life ..Quite a few things have been creating turmoil in the past one month. Hopefully have been left unscathed to a major extent, though not the same can be said of those whose lives i am privy to.

What i am writing below is a fictional account, something i framed while speaking with a friend.

The past few days have been more of a whirlwind tour in the past having had to deal with the feelings of guilt. The guilt of having done something which should not have been done or of the fact that the present is connected with the past and is unaware of the past. I personally wud never mind about anything being there in the past affecting my present and future but then people dont seem to be understanding this fact.

We all have a lot in life to look to, something we all need to look forward to and adapt ourselves to. Never ever feel bad for whats happened in life, instead, remove all traces of the past and start living life afresh. If we continue to carry the guilt of our past, we will go nowhere. Remain stuck where we are, repenting our actions and feeling bad for what we did. But then are we not doing a bigger wrong by not living the present and wasting a part of our lives something which we will never get back again.

Hopefully life should be back on track in the next couple of days and worries all disappeared, till then keep your prayers going for me .. :)

Masaakali !!!!

2009-02-23T00:06:00.004+05:30

Had a nice saturday evening with Delhi 6, Touted to be the most awaited movie of the year. The music by AR Rehman has already had everyone singing the songs especially Masaakali .. The song though is all about the Pigeon of the same name whos happens to be om puris favourite, and hence has her wings tied .. The situation of masaakali is akin to that of Bittu (Sonam), Om puris daughter whos the rebel and wants to become an indian idol and whom om puri wants to get married to the 1st eligible boy he lands his hands on ..

Overall good movie, had some nice laughing moments .. too much of Kaala Bandar .. The review starts from here

The movie starts with the Delhi 6 background music and a tandav nritya by Ravan sung by raghuvir yadav and part of the raam leela being organised in delhi. Along with the bandar this happens to be the next month imp story line in the movie. Many scenes are shown along with the story and the focus keeps shifting between the movie and the co-relation of the raam leela with the characters in the movie.

The initial hour of the movie captures the true reality of delhi, the crowded congested streets, the people, the behaviour all of which is true to the core. anyone whos been to delhi will agree with me on this. Rahman rocks in the music and the songs suit the scenes well. The songs tend to have a traditional overtone to it and soothes the ears of the listener leaving him wanted for more. The depiction of the police office Ran Vijay Thakur is what the police in Delhi has come to being known for Lawlessness, misuse of power etc ..

Sonam comes across as a chirpy lively female who unfortunately has to live her life according to her dads wish. A Rebel to the core she loves defying the rules and thats when the problems start. In between the respect for parents and the urge to lead your life the own way comes the diffuclt task of rebelling. This is very true in all metros across the country and i have a few friends who r having the same situation at home. Some stand up for themselves while some quietly accept the things as they r and then accept defeat. No wrong in standing for your rights for its U who has to lead ur life ahead.

In between the director also brings a religious twist to the story by potrayal of the Kala bandar as a person of a particular religion and which leads to further twists and turns and riots in Chandni Chowk. anothere thing to note is the fact that in India DOWRY is still a major worry for people and thats one thing which makes or break marriages. The movie shows the fact aptly well where the grooms father initially objects to the horosocope not matching and on being promised lavishes and moolah in return for the match agrees on the promise of being givena HEFTY dowry : 4 lacs cash, Honda Car and a honeymoon in Singapore. We may be having laurels for being a developed country but then the fact remains that inspite of being so well educated and modern, we still ROOT for dowry. This inspite the fact that he has a sister who is still unmarried and he is more eager to get his daugther married.

I am digressing from this post since would like to add something on a related topic. It looks like the marriage season in full swing. In this times of recession everyone seems to be making a beeline to get hitched or those already hitched are making a getaway home to help relieve stress. Now on the marriage topic, have been having chats with my friends who r either in the process of finding someone to get hitched or already have got hitched and most of them have opined that though the DOWRY system perse does not exist but then the devil always shows his head through another way. So these days its not CASH or CAR that is asked but then people are asked to give lists and lists of stuff as gifts to not just the grrom but also his whole family. Some communities even go to the extent of exhibitioning what all gifts the girl has bought from her maika and the fear of being seen in a poor light makes ppl rack up their expenses. Are we not educated enough to understand the value of money in these troubled times. I know i dont have any right to complain since these people are spending what is their hard and rightly earned money. What i am objecting to though is this wasteful spending of money which will never be realised and will be fogotten by all in a few days time.

I am also confronted by these friends with the same question on What Will I Do ??? Go against family or succumb to pressures and be another Male Chauvinist or stick to what i am preaching. Avoid wasteful expenditure. My personal take on this is I will not want 2 do wasteful expenditure .. especially gifts and all. On the contrary why not give me your blessings which will surely help me earn a lot more moolah by my own hard work and be proud of rather than hear ill words from you..

Another point i am adding before i return back to my Masaakali post is on sharing of expenses. No community to blame but in India even in the metros across a number of communities the wedding expenses are still borne by the girls family and this is precisely one reason why on the birth of a girl the father starts worrying on how will he handle her expenses and other things and the greed for a BOY starts coming into shape. I atleast am sure on what plans i have in life and i am sure u will also have ytours.

Now after a long break which i took i am back to Masakaali. Bittus threat of rat poison and apna hero Roshans defiance of Om puri start the romance between the lead pair. Slowly the talks start leading to conversations and then in to more longer conversations. Roshan always exhorts bittu to lead her way live life her own way blissfully unaware of the fact that dis is India and not Amrika.

In between just recollected this part wherein the children in the movie suddenly start realising that they have now grown up and need to be MARD. Based on hearsay they go to the local sweeper "Jalebi" played by Divya Dutta and tell her to make them MARD. This is what Delhi is now coming to what with the highest crime rate in the country and also the only state where women are treated with most disrespect. Looks like the people in the city are much more advanced in such matters and believe in using FORCE to achieve what they feel like. Think on this guys !!

Overall in the end Roshan (abhishek) dons the makeup of Kala bandar to make bittu (Sonam) realise her dreams and then n the bargain ends up being beaten up mistakenly for being the kala bandar whos wrecking havoc in Delhi. The frenzy of the people is something which ought to be seen, at one time they were fighting on religious issues and in the very next moment come together to beat the Bandar to death. If not for these A$$ politicians who want to eploit the country for their selfish gans, India would have been a much better place to live in.

Overall the music rocks, the cinematography is good especially with the scenes majority of it being shot in and around chandni chowk in delhi. The acting is good and has humour being thrown in between to help keep up with the boredom which may set in due to the dry script.

Worth a watch .. I liked it especially for the fact that the meaning conveyed for good and also partly due to the music which was thrown in between.

Do let me know of your views as well. Till next time .. Adios Amigos ...

Anxiety

2009-02-17T22:23:00.002+05:30

Hi

Been interacting more with friends the last few days and getting to learn a lot from them. Anxiety is something which everyone seems to be very uncomfortable handling. When it strikes it caused mayhem and the most sensible person develops cold feet and starts behaving funnily. The anxiety may be anything .. Waiting for someone, results etc .. During this last week, met people who were too excited and anxious waiting for things to unravel. Just speaking with them gave me an insight of how funny a human brain is. In these cases how much practical we may be we still end up doing stupid silly things which will sound completely irrational.

Severe cases of anxiety need to be treated at times by doctors. Not sure whether any of us go through anything like such extent but then i am sure all of us go through such feelings at one stage or another. How we manage these are how we lead our life and manage these feelings is what helps us lead our lives in a way different from those around us.

Will post some more on this in the coming days .. taking a break for dinner .. catch ya buddies soon

Billu Bhayanker ...

2009-02-15T19:34:00.003+05:30

Its been a long time since i have been online or a long time since i blogged .. Most of the times these days is spent either visiting relatives, friends or in college finishing my studies .. Life's going too fast and at times need to catch my breath to get in pace with whats happening. At times am stretched too much and that makes me go a bit away and stretch myself more for delivering whats required. That's the latest on life from my end.

After a long time got some time today and then decided to spend it at home with Dad and also watching some movie together. Dad generally does not c Hindi movies since he does not like the ones made these days which are full of Dance and nothing else and also which have no running story line.

Watching me engrossed in the movie he also gathered interest and sat with me to watch the movie .. One of the rare times we both got time to watch a movie. The movie (Billu Barber) has been well shot and also has been kept on a very realistic level. Billu is a simple living guy who is SRK's Best friend .. he is someone who wants to live by his ideals and not go to his friend even in his bad days. The whole movie then talks abt how SRK comes in the same village as billu and at the same time the news of his friendship with SRK spreads and in our Star Crazy country the whole town runs after him waiting for a chance to get to met the HERO.

In the end the story unfolds with the HERO SRK acknowledging the importance of friends in life and also the fact that all that he is today is due to his friend Billu.. The whole town which earlier had brandished a cheater and ridiculed for taking the town on a ride now does a U turn and regrets having ridiculed someone who did not want to misuse his friendship for others gains. In the end a good ending and a well acted and written movie.

Do c this if u guys get time .. Billu Bhayanker is good n rocks ...

I am not sure when i will get to blog next .. Happy Reading till then ..

Changing Times

2009-01-25T14:47:00.005+05:30

Hi I am back to bore you all.

Was not sure on when i will be able to blog back again .. but much to the disappointment of those who manage to go through my blogs i am back. The long weekend made me realise i had to spend some time sitting down n penning something .. I was speaking with a friend the other day when i just realised that india is still the same. As a country we may be prospering and reaching new heights, but in many pockets in the country we still r too orthodox deeply rooted in tradition and also following age old customs. Our general perception says that this would be only in the smaller towns and places but then dats not the case but is also prevalent in metros as well and also amongst educated well to do people as well. I have no intentions of offending anyone, anyone's feelings, however since this is something which i never got to experience on my own and is basis what i have heard from friends.

There are somethings for which i don't know whats the logic, but still my understanding is that there is no need to have these as a part of our lives. One example is of people not being allowed in kitchen on certain days. I could not find a logic to this, so my quest for the answer continues. Though i do have some knowledge of why somethings in this context are done but then majorly this is something which has always dogged me for answers.

We now have a Female President as the head of our country. This should speak a lot of our respect for females, but then in many places in the country there is still despair and unhappiness on the birth of a baby girl when compared with the birth of a BOY. Obsession of the people in the country with a MALE progeny still continues unabated. Most of us would again say this would be limited to villages but then its also prevalent in a city like mumbai. A friend of mine had a baby girl and said he would not mind having 4-5 children to fulfill his quest for having a BOY. Tried speaking with him but then he had his own gyaan on all this, esp abt having someone to carry on his lineage, his name do his work n blah blah .. Finally last week he had a second baby a BOY which meant an end to his desire for babies.

Though times have changed and to cope up with the changing times so have the people but then i believe we still have a long way to go. Quite a few things which need 2 be right .. Tooo sleepy and yawning to write anything now .. Will blog up sometime in the evening or the weekend when i will be able to get some time ..

Take care buddies and thanks for spending time through this boring post .. :D

Adios Amigos ...

A New Chapter in Life

2009-01-18T12:18:00.011+05:30

I have been grappling with managing time for the past few weeks and that's one reason i haven't been able to continue regularly with my love ... writing for my blog. Quite a few things happening in life which seems to occupy most of my time and whatever time remains is used by me for spending some time for my own self, spending time with dad and at home doing things i like doing .. Plan to watch Chandni Chowk to China today .. I did .. :)

Now coming to this post, why i named it this way.. Today happens to be my 28th Birthday and a special reason for that .. ya know i am getting old, please those females out there .. don't start it all over again ...i know the fact that i am getting old and also what i need to do, so don't make me feel like i am an oldie. I may look old but i am still very much young at heart ... :) My cell is under repair so most people have not been able to get in touch with me. My cell was behaving funny since past 2 days so i thought its better for me to give it for repairs rather than work with something which is not giving me its use ..Its now switched off and i will be away for a few days ..

I did blog a few days ago about me being a number 9 person and this being a year ending in 9 (2009), was wondering on what is there store for me. Was reading the papers when i came across my forecast in today's paper ..

From Blogger Pictures

The day was a good one, after a long time spent time with dad at home. Since my cells switched off had very few calls on my alternative number. Will be incommunicado for a few more days at least till i get my cell back .. In the evening was thinking of a friend from whom i had neither received a call nor a message. Then recollected she would be not knowing my cell was switched off and would be trying me on that no and also messaging there. Nevertheless while leaving home had mailed her saying a Hi and then logged off .. I had just left home and had reached the 1st floor when i got her call and she had called to wish me "Happy Birthday". This one thing made the day for me .. The joy is something i can never quantify nor express completely.. Thanks dear for making my day and giving a gr8 start to my year.

In the same way the last day ended on a very good note .. I was out to meet a friend and we did meet. She was busy at work and so i was waiting at her place and at the same time working as well on my office comp since i did not want to get bored doing nothing .. finally we left together and walked over to the station .. I had to rusk 2 college and she had 2 go home .. Finally in the end .. we walked all the way to the station and of the 2-3 hrs we were together .. there was not much long we spoke but the small time we were talking did make both of us :). In the end she remarked while parting that it feels wonderful to know that someone cares for u and is always there for u. That made me very special and i am very happy at having made a difference to someones life.

Hope to have many more such experiences. Take care amigos .. Thanks to all of you for your wishes .. I am sure your blessings will ensure i have a wonderful year ahead.

Will try and post more in the coming year ..

Happy New Year ...2009

2009-01-08T20:07:00.003+05:30

Hi Buddies

Wish you all a Happy n Prosperous 2009.

This year has started on a very good note, maybe something that's got to do with the fact that i am a number 9 person born on 18th in the year 81.. In all everywhere 9 except the month of birth ..

The new year was ringed in at a friends place where 7 of us college friends came together and had a gr8 blast .. Food, Smoke, Booze ... all were flowing throughout .. had a nice concoction of drinks .. Bacardi Breezer, Smirnoff Vodka and Antiquity Blue. We started our talks and the food and drinks started. Along this we also had songs to give us company and started speaking about how life's been going and had conferences with a friends abroad .. wishing them as well. Quite a few skeletons tumbled from the cupboard .. Overall a very good time spent .. Something which we friends did after a long time .. Its always good to freshen up the memories of growing up .. Looking forward to many more of such ..

Raigad

2009-01-07T22:42:00.005+05:30

The new year had a great start for me. Had a night out at a friends place with old college friends .. had a gr8 time there ..spent a nice time getting back to the old times and ringing in New year together. It was one of the best experiences i had .. It was Booze, smoke, music everywhere flowing all around ..

Post that had made plans over the weekend to go out for a Trek to Raigad - the capital of Shivaji Maharaj and which was once the pride of his kingdom.

Raigad Trek - Jan 2008

I am posting snaps of the trek. It was a big gang of 16 of us .. colleagues from office and also some common friends who had set out to make a memorable trek. The day started on Saturday 3rd Jan 09 with a departure of mumbai and travelling a distance of 190 kms we reached the base village at the foot of the Fort from where we had to start a long trek upwards. All of us started with lots of excitement and vigor only to start panting for breath as soon as we had reached the initial 100 steps . For those who did not know ... there are around 1500 steps to reach the top of the Fort and these were not normal steps. The initital 100 steps are straight steps just that the height between the 1st and the 2nd is around 1feet climbing which gives a person a tough time. In between i had to go slow and stop taking fast breaths in between and also panting for breath. The experience surely left me wanting for more and gave an experience i would never ever get to relive again.

Having reached the top by around midnight .. we got to keeping our stuff in the romm , freshening up .. and then hitting bed .. it was 13 of us in a big room .. We were all up at the crack of dawn and out to xplore the fort and its various surroundings .. the album will surely give u a picture of all that we explored and got to know more about not only the fort but also about its history.

Post a good lunch cooked at one of the families staying on the fort we started our descent down the fort .. The descent was pretty soon and we reached down in an hour and half, much faster than the 3 hrs we took to climb the fort ..

The return trip to mumbai was also good .. we started at 5 pm and the driver bring in a hurry to reach mumbai soon .. drove like he was driving an aeroplane .. he started to press the accelerator and drive at speeds of 80-100 at times .. and being in the front seat .. i cud understand .. how it all was .. especially the cuts that he took had me sitting at the edge of the seat .. must appreciate one thing that the drivers have an excellent command over the roads ...

Reached home by 10 pm .. and had bath .. to remove the stench from my body and have a good nice sleep ...

Thats it for this time ... will keep it going ..

Weight Loss - How i did it ..

2008-12-28T21:31:00.002+05:30

Have been meeting all old friends in the past few days and most of them come up with this common question, " How did u manage to loose weight " .. U look so good .. Please tell me ..

I did not do anything special or go through those Weight / Tummy reduction program's on TV. Call it Diet consciousness or cost cutting brought about the current economic conditions, I hve cut out on my intake of JUNK food. No pizzas, cheese burgers, etc. I have stopped eating these for the past 2-3 mnths and have noticed my waist line reducing by an inch, and weight dropping by 3 kgs. I know the weight loss is not much but then i cant come below 75 kgs .. Haddi ka vajan hai .. cant come below that ..

I plan to continue with this diet routine and stick to avoiding the CHEESE foods. Those are the culprits which aid your weight increase .. Just have plain food , veg or non veg .. more of leafy vegetables.

Continue this for around a month or two and you will start noticing the difference. For those like me whose work is predominantly done sitting, one thing to be kept in mind is to keep walking every few hours. Once the tummy starts growing .. it takes a long while to stop ..

In case any1 has some other tips, please add ..

Things happening in life

2008-12-23T22:37:00.005+05:30

Been wondering these days whether there is a reason for things happening in life .. Many ppl say .. There is a Reason behind everything happening in ur life and like akka said .. "Everything happens for somethin next to happen". Now i dunno which one of this is right .. I am sharing what i think is right..

Looking back at the time that has passed by, especially my working life of 7+ years, I am tending to believe both of what is said above. There have been many things happening in life and during that phase i came across some people in life who helped me stay steady and get out of the situation. Now looking behind at the time which has passed, i feel its destined that the friendship which blossomed between me and them is in fact a precursor of things that were in store for us. If i did not have such a strong friendship i would not have been able to today support them when they need me. Looking forward to the coming time to find out whats new in store for me.

I am out for a visit to Raigad for two days next weekend with office colleagues. May not be able to blog. Will be posting the snaps though .. Do keep visiting ..

When Everything Goes Wrong !!!

2008-12-22T23:17:00.002+05:30

There are always those days in our lives .. when no matter how much we try to .. Things go Wrong :( .. The same happened for me as well 2day .. I reached office on Normal Time .. and found out the Electricity of my office cubicle was BUST .. The UPS had tripped .. Waited for the electrician and then started work late by an hour .. After having this setup .. started on work and had one issue or the other cropping up .. Early morning finished cleaning my mailbox and then just as my day started .. got thrashing .. @ work .. Quite a few things pending and with building pressure .. it was bound to come out .. Finally having cleared it .. left for FOrt for a meeting .. All along in this chaos i forgot i did not have LUNCH .. Nothing new for me .. but something which i always avoid for it creates lots of unwanted problems ..

Had a fight with a friend in office .. Arguments .. one after another leading to a bitter fight .. Things r normal but just that we fought again on an issue .. shes always been tight lipped about .. Hope to solve that as well.

In the evening had a meeting which was scheduled to start at 4pm but started at 5:30 .. Having done at 7 pm .. checked my mails and then left for home ..A few minutes before that spoke with a friend .. promising her i will come later for there were many things i had 2 speak with her .. Those will need 2 wait for now .. Traffic was too much on the way and in between was catching up with friends on cell by messaging via gtalk .. That was the only means i had of staying away from the tension and the never ending mumbai traffic snarls. reached home at 8:40 and did my evening prayers .. By Gods Grace no Mishaps here .. Started to access net and Poof it goes .. I call the cable guy and the dumbo says its not gonna come for atleast 2 hrs .. thats 10:30 .. It finally came at 11:15.

I ordered for food in the meanwhile and the guy brings the wrong order not once but Twice .. Third time had to personally call the restaurant guy and make sure he sent the correct order .. This is what Customer Service is in India .. The people making the goods / service still call the SHOTS !!! .. Consumer Activism to the DOGS !!!
Finally having received my correct order i had my dinner, read the papers .. 5 of them .. and then finally sat 2 check net which still was playing Hide and Seek with me .. Finally got some luck and managed to access net .. and here i am writing this post ..

Looking 4ward to having a much better day .. Less Tension .. and God Willing have a much pleasant happy day ..

Wish u Happy Tension Free Day Ahead .. :) God Bless All ..

Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi ....

2008-12-21T21:11:00.002+05:30

Adis back .. however his magic did not work .. Rab Ne Bana di Jodi = Match made by God .. Like we say .. Marriages are made in Heaven, Solemnised on Earth, the movie treads the same line .. Surinder Sahni is a simple person who goes to his gurji's daughters wedding and in the melee ends up getting married with her. What follows is a normal story which could have been told in a much better way .. The movie is overall an average one .. though it does have its moments of pride ..

Overall though the critics gave the movie a thumbs down .. i still liked it for some parts .. one especially the fact that i could relate this movie to 2 people i know .. those who have gone through kinda the same phase that Tanni went though .. And i am sure in the end things will all end well ..

Mujhe Rab Dikha hai ... n my Mom .. since she was the one i loved the most and now that she is not there i miss her the most .. Nothing gonna fill in this void in life .. but then we all need 2 get on ahead with life else .. we will all be regretting abt something which can never be changed ..

Overall The movie is worth one Dekko .. Though It has a lot of overacting .. Still would suggest one look at the movie .. the overall concept is good ... and worth a watch .. Njoi Guys .. :)

Dreams

2008-12-21T18:43:00.002+05:30

Dreams .. Do they foretell the future .. I personally have had some experiences .. some good some bad .. though none of them have come true .. Plus i have a friend of mine whos born on an amavasya .. and due to that she gets nightmares .. and most of those nightmares come true in one sense or the other .. I have heard from many that our dreams do come true .. and dreams are an indication of what is in store for the future ..

In case you know more on this .. do lemme know ..
Ciao ..

End of the Tunnel

2008-12-07T11:21:00.005+05:30

Quite a few things happening around just made me think over this ... Is there always an END to a Tunnel or is it just a maze of turns and ends which just keep u going round and round .. No End in Sight .. Thats what happens to most of us when there is a prolonged period of hardships coming your way ,...

Thats smthing grappling a close friend .. I always believe there is Light At the End of the Tunnel .. She Does not .. Lets c who wins ..

Smoking ....

2008-12-01T16:00:00.002+05:30

We all know smoking is injurious to health .. still none the less u see a lot of people still holding a stick in their hands and puffing .. smoking their lungs out .. What issue does it make .. a stick a day wont make a major difference .. plus i use a double filtered one .. its a foreign one .. 555 / Lights .. Its just cool ..

These are some of the replies friends have given me when i dissuaded them from smoking .. I had my exam today and it went off very well .. A good start to the papers just after a extremely saddening weekend .. Hopefully the remaining two papers should go well.

Now why i wanted 2 write on this .. On my way back i was passing Bombay central and having a window seat i was looking outside and at the time listening to Radio .. I had Sana on the line and on the opposite side at the Bus Stop saw a lady smoking .. her lungs out ..

Have spoken on this with many of my friends .. still most don't seem 2 agree and seldom wanna kick the BUTT. That's how they wanna lead their lives ..

My advice to all people especially females, since they also will be bringing a new born in this world and smoking is bound to create complications .. the filter not withstanding ..

Kick the Habit .. Kick the Butt .. The sooner the better .. Hope people do spread the awareness and start Quitting Smoking and help others also lead a better life

TO end this on World Aids Day .. my advice to all .. Don't have Sex with multiple partners .. In case you do .. Please practice Safe Sex.. Its always better 2 be Safe than Sorry ..

God Bless u .. Take care buddies .. Will try and post soon ..

Developments

2008-11-28T20:48:00.001+05:30

Hi

There have been quite a few developments happening .. Both around me in Mumbai and in personal life .. Will keep this page updated as and when things progress..

Examsss Soujourn Time

2008-11-22T23:51:00.003+05:30

Hi Buddies

I am taking some time off from my blog .. A bi tied up with work, concentrating on studies now .. Got exams on 1st, 2nd and 3rd Dec. Busy preparing for that ..

Will be back soon .. till then carry on buddies

Dostana ..

2008-11-16T22:58:00.002+05:30

In between my studies and shopping over the weekend .. managed 2 catch some time to watch dostana .. Had to watch the movie and complete my tax notes to avoid missing on the completion.

Coming to the movie .. Dostana - 2 Gay or not 2 Gay ..

One of those numerous movies which in recent times have been harping more on the GAY thing as if there is nothing meaningful left in the movies or topics left for filmmakers to explore .. It sells and that's what movie makers want these days .. Overall an OK movie .. Dunno what led the reviewers to rate the movie with a *** rating . MY rating for this is a **.

The movie starts with Shilpa Shetty dancing on the beach with Nangu John .. all those girls who were oooh and aah over john would get to c lots of his body in this movie .. thats what the director has been good at.

The movie starts with Sam and kunal posing as a Gay couple to geta house on rent with Neha .. The acting by them initially esp john is good .. we have atleast a new gay couple (Shahrukh and Saif in KHNH)

The movie goes smooth and in between comes the Suitor .. Bobby deol .. this makes both sam and kunal realise they r in love with the same girl neha .. then starts the fights between them to gain her .. Sam as a stripper at the kittty party was good .. Neha looks good throughout the movie .. looks like with a good performance in Fashion , priyanka is keeping the tempo up ..

IN the end . after the rona dhona and the KISS, Neha goes with bobby to lead a happy life .. Added Kirron kher is as good as always .. Hopefully looking forward to better movies in the coming weekend ..

Do go and watch for a Time pass .. Take the humour in right spirit and Enjoi the movie ..

Desperation

2008-11-13T00:05:00.003+05:30

Desperation .. Driving people crazy.... Met a friend of mine last week online and had a long chat on a variety of issues and during the course of our discussion we came across the captioned topic .. There r many things that drives people to do things and desperation is one of those things which does drive people crazy .. Be it the way they interact with people or the way they display all that's stuck in the HEAD does lead people to at times do crazy things ..

Like this friend of mine .. who's now started slowly started 2 feel the loneliness and eagerness to get married .. Kabhi jaanta nahin tha ki people get so desperate about not being married .. We all do feel the loneliness sometime or the other in life .. and as a matter of fact it does happen even if ones married. Quite a few examples i have seen which can be quoted in support of that ..

Now coming forward to what i wanted to write about .. something which has been there around for quite some time but i never felt it that it concerned me ,.. linkups galore .. never bothered me that things could be this way as well. I have been linked with so many girls that i have now lost count of the people i have been linked with. For some people its just fun to link sm1 with sm1 .. A joke is a joke till an extent .. when things start getting personal that's when it hurts. Nothings hurt me but i know that somewhere it has hurt the person linked with me .. One cant stop tongues from wagging and dogs from barking .. If some people want to create smoke without fire then .. they will try all means 2 have some smoke so that some reaction comes out from those .. Just for those who have been a bit too eager and inquisitive to find out about me .. There is none in my life now .. As and when there is someone god willing, i will be writing about it first out here .. Till then hope peace prevails

You may be wondering where is this linked with desperation .. To an extent it is .. People have an age at which they want to settle down and even if they aren't ready .. parents, peer pressure .. U name it and the poor person is surrounded with ppl ready to pounce on him to make him / her settle down .. I am happy i have none of that .. though know of people who are .. being bombarded with gyaan on marriage / settling down .. as if that's the only thing left in this world .. IN this desperation to get themselves settled some people start interacting more with

I never felt the hurry to get married .. like they tell u .. Tu ladka hai tujhe kya ghai hai .. aaram se kar le na .. Ladki ki shaadi jaldi honi chahiye .. This is not just friends telling me .. but even my cousin sis telling me this .. If its the biological clock dat people more often seem 2 point towards to then its the same for both guys and girls .. just like a girl ages ... so does a GUY .. some people differ .. with me on this ..

Now coming to the end of this post .. I know it would be foolish for me to expect people to change their habits just coz it hurts others .. but believe me when one goes through the same stage that's when one realises that the wrongs that one did are too many .. and the pain we are suffering or going through is what that other person would have gone through ..

Take care amigos .. a bit tied up with exams so will be delayed in posting ..

Breakups .. Galore

2008-11-09T19:24:00.002+05:30

Been around a month since i posted anything . Things r goin 2 hectic in life .. Work is driving me crazy plus had exams .. just done with 2 internal papers and now have the semester university exams in december .. will try and post atleast once a week. Atleast hope to stick to this routine of mine ..

Seems like there is now a season of breakups going on .. two people close to me have gone through them recently. One of them my sweetheart my cousin sis and other a close friend. Things are fine now .. but with things shattered due to the breakup, things have gone crazy .. Currently coming to terms with things in life .. shes kinda drawn in to a cocoon .. sometimes makes me wonder why do people have to go thru so much of pain .. and be unsuccessful always in love .. lets c hw long this bandwagon goes ..

will keep updating .. do keep checking ...

Helloo .. God Calling !!!

2008-10-12T21:51:00.002+05:30

After a long time .. got some time to sit back and see a movie .. though this time did not go to the theatre to watch it .. Busy with studies and college .. so no time to go to a cinema hall.

2 start with .. the movie is based on the book " One Night @ Call Center " by Chetan Bhagat .. I had a nice time reading the book though not much time with the movie ..

The movie starts with a dance by the nangu pangu Salman .. The movie starts with the introduction of all the characters and then gets on to the main pathway .. Maybe the movie will nt stike cord with many people as its too fast paced and the suspense element which was there with the book does nt hold sway here .. One thing abt the movie is that all the cast have had to wear mostly just 1 pair of clothess . thereby savings lots of moolah for the producers .. add to this .. the actors are all part of the KHANdaan with amrita also thrown in ..

Overall .. good performances by Agent Sam .. Sharman as the Team leader .. Gul looks good .. especially as this movie is after a long time .. .. Apli Amchi mulgi .. Esha (she's also a GSB) has few scenes in between .. as the model wannabe .. willing to go to any levels .. ala Casting Couch .. Something which also is true to a major extent.

Amrita as the depressed Bahu .. knows only 1 thing .. Pop in tablets every time the camera comes to her .. as if there is nothing else in the world to control depression and resolve marital conflicts.

Military uncle .. is there as well .. maybe chetan wanted to have some senior characters thrown in the book .. which again makes a mark in the movie as well

Sohal .. as Vroooom .. gives good company to Agent Sam .. oops Shyam .. Bakshi aka Dilip tahil is like any other current day boss .. stepping over subordinates to prove their meetle ..

Overall a good flick .. worth a one time watch .. If u havent read the book .. then dont do before u c the movie .. The fun will be lost .. Juts leave ur brains at hme .. and have a gr8 time watching the movie ..

Looking forward to the next movie " Three Idiots " which is also an adaption of the movie . "Five Point Someone" by Chetan Bhagat. Lets c when it hits the screens ..

Finally got to blog on two topics .. Happy got some time for my love .. blogging ..

Looking forward to doing some more blogging .. Take care Amigos .. Happy Reading .. Cya soon

Background Checks

2008-09-17T22:44:00.004+05:30

Hi ..

Been figuring out what to do .. for quite sm time .. been tied up a lot with work and with college .. Both r goin on @ full steam leaving me with hardly time for anything .. Was out for few days last week for an offsite and must say thoroughly enjoyed a lot ..

Will post a separate post on that.

This is smthing which i have had to encounter many no of times .. Friends calling and asking for info .. abt people .. background checks for employment , marriage etc. At times we do help the other person .. but then sharing personal info abt sm1 is something not considered ethical .. Had a bad experience earlier on this .. though the relationship did not go ahead as the girls family was too nosy .. lets c .. what happens now ..

will post more on this sm other day ..

2nd Time Lucky

2008-09-13T13:32:00.003+05:30

Currently in Mumbai its the Ganesh festival going on in full swing. This festival is one of the most widely celebrated ones and there is participation by people of all caste , creed. Lord Ganesh or Vignaharta - Remover of Obstacles as the lord is know is one of the most widely worshiped deities in Hindu mythology. There is a long story on why this came in to being, will post if some other day.

Now coming to this post on why its 2nd time lucky for me .. Got inundated with calls from people especially once i had changed my tag line on gtalk .. Kya hua .. kaise hua .. kon hai ladki vagere vagera?? Not that i intended whipping up some story / building the suspense .. still that was the best word i could coin for me ..

I had been to lalbaug to take darshan of Lalbaug ka Raja last week. A friend staying in the area had assured me that i would be given a darshan of lord not after too much of waiting (not the normal eight hour waiting). I reached there a bit late though in time for the line .. The chaos was too much hence could not get in the line when i wanted to. After some time did get in the darshan and was told that i would be able to get on to the stage via the VIP gate which is just below the stage. As luck wud have it, the gate was closed and there went all my chances of getting on to the stage.

I did manage to have the mukhdarshan of the lord and came out of the line a bit dejected at not having been able to pray at the feet of lord. Both me and my friend who had come with me the evening decided that we will again try and get in and find a way to get in and pray at the feet of lord.

Got in the 2nd time .. this time i was sure that i wanted to pray at lords feet. Time was running for me as the aarti was to be help in some time and if i missed the time before that i wud nt be able to get in .. Finally managed to get in the line again and also got to view the lord via a back stage entry and we managed to pray at the feet of lord. The feeling is something which people call truly divine. We both had made a list of things we would say when we pray at the feet but when we reached and prayed it was all blank. We managed to pray on our way out looking at the lord and then silently praying to him, the only other time i got to pray was when i was waiting in the area before being given entry through the back door looking at the lords image on TV.

May God Ganesha Bless All :-)

In the end came out content having prayed at Rajas feet and having sought his blessings. Have shared some snaps on my picasa homepage.

Do go through ..

Relationships

2008-09-05T22:55:00.002+05:30

Life's been goin down the roller coaster ride for quite some time .. quite a few things happening but havent been able 2 get much time for my luv .. blogging.. Just thought will blog on few things which have of late become a bit tough .. Works goin good .. but hectic ..personal life is slow .. more out of my own choice rather than anything else ..

Now coming to my posts on relationships, life has been goin good .. No serious relationships but have got a very good bunch of friends whom i have got to know better over the past 1 year. Someone who has had no problems being with me / for that matter even coming out with me .. Over the past few months we have got to get to know each other better and a better understanding ..

Personal life as such is going slow .. like i said its more a matter of my choice that i decided i will go slow on that rather than rush into things at the moment. Things are a tad too hectic and dont wanna stretch myself beyond the limits

Off late i am being LINKED with quite a few people .. Not that its something which bothers me .. but i would not like the other person to feel bad on being linked with me . Tried reasoning with people but some people just like 2 gossip and there is no stopping to them .. Nyways no issues for me nor the people concerned ..

Lets c .. how life goes .. will keep blogging more often .. taking out time every 2-3 days .. till then ciao ..

Bachna Ae Haseeno !!!

2008-08-15T18:12:00.003+05:30

Had initially thought of not posting anything today but then .. had some free time b4 i got back to my studies ..Just came back after viewing the movie Bachna Ae Haseeno .. That makes it my 3rd movie in a row .. though this time i also had my cousin for company .. The movie was a good one and prior to goin had checked some previews on websites which had to differing views .. So like everytime .. this time also i left my brains outside the Screen 1 of Cinemax as i believe if u go to a movie with ur brains u tend to come out sad / too happy depending on the movie .. So to avoid any problems better to leave your brains at home ..

The review is my personal take on the movie and like all i am an average movie goer who goes 2 the theatre to spend some time and view something interesting .. This may not be what the critics tell u but then i aint I .. so read at your RISK

The movie starts with a bang with the Kishore Kumar title song playing in full volume and Ranbir trying some of Hrithiks dance antics .. In between the song, the 3 leading ladies also form along with the credits sharing some screen space .. Bipasha is the OOmmmph factor of the movie .. Minisha the soft spoken .. Nuthing wrong happens with me girl and in the end Ranbir and his reel - real life partner Deepika ..

The movie is a flashback of what all has Raj Erred in his life .. Its his story said in his words on a sydney beach ..

Circa 1996 is where Raj & Mahi meet .. This is inspired the DDLJ story line .. a Guy looking out for fun while a girl whos seen DDLJ umpteen no of times .. that even Yashraj would forget the scenes which she wud remember making the trip to find her RAJ .. The Dream guy in her life .. After the introduction of the guys and gals .. 4 each .. the Imminent meeting happens and both Raj & Simran .. Oops .. Raj & Mahi come face to face .. (Seems like the DDLJ hangover refuses to even let go of me ....) As luck wud have it .. Its love at first sight .. Then comes the much needed scene .. wherein Mahi misses her train and Raj in true DDLJ style jumps on the tracks just so that he can be with his lady love .. and then starts the usualy tricks that the 18 year lad wants to .. The Killer Combination dat he keeps telling .. After spending time and some few kisses .. they bid adieu .. and while boasting in front of his friends Mahi catches raj and she runs away from him dejected and heart Broken ..

Then comes 2002 and even the OOmmp Bipasha .. Rajs live in partner .. the flash back continues and the sparks start flying .. She actually starts falling in luv .. while Raj is still the immature guy .. all dat he needs is some company in bed .. and thats the reason when Radhika pushes for marriage .. Raj runs away to Sydney leaving radhika in the lurch outside the marriage registrars office ..

Then Starts the story in Sydney where Raj is posted as a developer for Xbox gaming system .. One a drive he meets Gayatri - Deepika who juggles between various liferoles .. A Taxi Driver at night , a MBA student in the day and a Superstore attendant in the middle .. Finally after several rouns of courting he finally proposes to her .. and then .. SHE REFUSES . and That kills d Hero .. Being Dejected makes him realise the wrongs he has done with the others .. so he starts out on a trip to get forgiveness for the SINS that he had committed and then goes about setting things right in their lives .. He meets Mahi .. gets her on with her hubby playd by KUnal Kapoor after a few blue eyes .. Then he meets Radhika .. uff Shreya Rathore .. the NEw Indian Supermodel .. who makes him work as her secretary and thereby abusing him to the greatest extent possible ..

In the end he gets pardoned and comes back to Australia to find his house flooded with letters written by Gayatri .. Professing love for him .. The 2nd half though a very dry part does hv some funny moments like the one in the car with gayatri and the firang on the way 2 d airport ..

Overall an OK movie .. 1st half was good .. Fast paced ... that kept u hooked on .. the funny moments were too good and had the whole theatre in laughs .. Would recommend seeing the movie .. not for the laughs but for the fact that the movie conveys a good fact .. DOnt Break someones heart just like that .. for when u go through the same feeling the feeling is extremely bad ..

Happy reading .. a TOO longgggggg review .. Liked the movie so wrote it .. Plan to c Phoonkh now .. which my friend does not want to .. Lets c .. How it goes .. :)

Trying my hand at some stuff ..


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Passage of Time

2008-08-15T12:18:00.006+05:30

Time flies by too soon and before u know .. The time passed by .. Its been a year since mom passed away and was away a few days ago to udupi to complete her 1 year rituals .. Looking back at life .. Its been a roller coaster ride .. all along .. been through many ups and downs in the past year .. overall its been good .. Starting with personal front .. Life is goin good .. No flings / affair nuthing of that sort happening .. Not that it any time happened with me .. just .. for the laughs .. :D .. Official life is goin good .. Work is goin gr8 .. Getting to do a lot of things and thats in turn getting me to juggle a lot between time .. at time get too tied up .. and come home exhausted ..// and by the time i am home already half dead .. and hen after checking my mails hit the bed around 12-1 am ... by which time i am completely exhausted .. This schedule has in a way helped me get over the feeling of loss ..

Plus must add one thing .. Got a very good circle of friends .. Some ppl whom i have got to know much better and much personally over the past few years .. just at times feel :( since they r nt here with me in Mumbai but across seas .. so my communication with them has been either phone or mails ..

Baaki been tied up with life .. so havent been able to blog much .. I am cutting this short since i need 2 get ready n go for a movie .. ya again this week also .. thats 3 in a row .. Ugly .. Singh .. and Bachna ... Wanna c Phoonk as well .. but no company for that .. my friends seem 2 b too afraid to watch it ..

Thats the end for today .. Maybe if i happen 2 take some time out after the movie will blog again .. till then Bye buddies

Wishing all a Happy Independence Day ..

Ugly n Pagli ...

2008-08-03T21:52:00.004+05:30

Hie .. Blogging after a long time .. Been travelling for sm time plus been a bit too busy with work and college so havent been able to take out time for many things in life .. will be posting separate posts as and when i get time .. now coming to this one .. Ugly n Pagli .. Dats nt may life re .. The movie i just saw in the evening .. Was running late with my prof taking my lecture .. and then happened to get it done in the nick of time n rushed to dadar to pick my friend who got a little late .. nevertheless we managed to reach d theatre n time just missing the national anthem ..

Coming to the movie , it was a long time since we saw any movies .. been tied up with college and plus there were somethings or the other coming n between. The movie starts on a bang .. the disc and the other ambience makes one feel like this is just another story of a mumbai couple .. the scene where mallika is swaying in front of the train is what happens many a times .. Could not digest the tequilas she had .. cud nt think one could have so many .. but then .. hindi movie always defy logic and commonsense.

The movie is about Kabir who has always had the liking for a Girlfriend but never managed to have one .. thanks to MA and her calls .. at the wrong times .. Then comes Kuhu mallika the girl whos come in his life to make life HELL for him ..

Kabir always wanted a girlfriend, but never in his wildest dreams did he ever think he would encounter a girl who could make him dance around circles, ride cycles without seats, wear high heeled ladies sandals and not to forget the 99 SLAPS

The movie has its share of ligh moments and at times had the whole theatre in laughter .. We both did have a gr8 time watching the movie .. the movie also had its lows esp when Kuhu gets emotional thinking abt her past (Dont ppl know Excess Baggage is to be left back and not to be carried forward). Shes suited for the unconventional type of girls ..

In this movie she does nt have any OOMph in her role .. Maybe smthing which is the reason its not goin houseful .. Not much of skin being shown around .. except for one song .. which the director tried to copy on a famous Thai performance .. Overall Mallika is good much better than i thought she will.. Ranvir excels and both of them carry the film on their shoulders ..

In the end must say It did make my evening and i left the theatre in a very happy cheeful mood .. having had a gr8 2 hours ..

My take on the movie .. It surely Needs one watch and believe me u wont regret it ... :)

Hope , Despair & Grief

2008-06-23T20:19:00.003+05:30

Its been quite sm time since i blogged .. Quite a few developments in life .. but wont write on that .. Somethings in life need to be under wraps .. Just over the past few days .. have seeen a lot of grief around in people.. that i forget sometimes my own grief ..Life has been going very smooth these days .. that at times i forgot what pain is .. Have gone through quite a few ups & downs .. especially the past one year .. Started with mom passing away in Aug last year .. which was a BIG blow for me ..

There were quite a few before that for me ..but not as powerful .. n to think of it .. its almost been a year since she passed away .. was just chalking out the modalities for the poojas to be done on her death anniversary.

starting with that .. quite a few things have happened in life .. met a lot of gals in life .. liked many of them .. but alas .. did nt click with any of them .. like some of my friends say .. If it does not click with ny1 ..Dont worry .. Its just that its your future partners prayers ..

Happy that i have many got special friends in life .. Friends whom i can look to for any help that i may need in life and to tell even more .. that most of them happen to be online friends with whom .. my friendship has strenghtened over the years ..

hope to write more laters .. gn ..

Sarkaar Raaj - Empire Strikes Back

2008-06-15T13:14:00.003+05:30

Finally after all the hype surrounding the movie .. it finally had hit the screens last week .. Was tied up with work and other arrangements so could not manage to take out time for booking tickets. So finally managed to see it yesterday.. Too many plots in mind .. before seeing the movie .. still decided to go with movie .. God Knows when i go to the next one .. and when thats gonna be .. the coming weeks r too hectic ... Quite a few things happenings in life .. College starts in another 2 weeks .. a Big outflow of Funds .. Management education these days is too costly ..Dont wanan digress from what i started .. will post on that topic laters ..

Now coming back 2 d movie .. The politics in the country allows no one to work on those issues that they need to .. This also happens to be the plot of the movie Sarkaar Raaj .. Trust , Betrayal , Back Stabbing .. all true facts of life .. in the present times as well this is too relevant ..

The movie starts with where the 1st part ended ..Now the Sarkaar has become an institution a force to reckon with .. Too powerful and a pseudo politician. This is somewhat like what is happening at the centre .. with someone else running the show from behind. I had gone 2 d movie hoping to c aishwarya in a different light .. but was too shocked to see Tanisha .. Shes too different from what she was in Neal N Nikki (Ya not many heard of it). I was just left comparing the two movies .. There she hardly had any clothes and here she was like .. Oomph .. With such a sweet face tough to avoid falling in love with .. Then i also forget i already have fallen .. So tanisha .. better luck next time ... Is baar ki booking to ho gayi hai .. Sometimes feel nice 2 get a small amount of humour .. and many a times people .. do get carried away .. and there starts the long story ..

Coming bak to Sarkaar .. The movie is a good one .. Though with its share of glitches .. a too short one .. 2 hrs to be precise .. AB Sr rocks as the Sarkaar .. Be it during the period of his sons death .. or afterwars when he gets all the people who consipired to AB jr killed eliminated .. And there he finds someone .. a New Sarkaar .. Bahu Aishwarya .. Movie starts with Ash coming for her Power Project, Shepherd Power Plant. Ab Sr opposes while AB Jr proposes .. He sees the overall development of the state more imp than displacement of a few villagers (40,000).. Thakrwadi comes to be the bone of contention and there comes in the Rao saheb .. Nagre Sr's Guru .. he acts as the peacemaker .. to pacify those people opposing the power plant .. and this includes the grandson of the Raosaheb .. As things start unfoldin the whole conspiracy .. comes n the picture .. and it all starts with the Bomb Explosion in the car in which Tanisha .. whos just broken the news of her pregnancy to her family gets killed .. The shooting of the sequence was too good .. U actually do feel the power of the explosion even watching the movie ..

Things start taking a too fast turn from here .. The loss of a near one always HURTS .. and then starts the whole story of revenge , killing . etc . The movie is much violent .. which will set back a few ppl from enjoying the movie

Unknown to many .. There is scheming goin on to shift the project to Gujarat and thats by Mr Vora .. who keeps telling everyone its Vora and not Ora as they were pronouncing .. at times does seem funny .. while at times .. a bit .. MOney makes people do anything is what the movie seems to tell .. Add to this the fact that due to changing loyalties .. there are quite a few disgruntled people .. who will go ny levels to settle scores.

Overall a good movie .. Did like the movie .. and especially Tanisha .. :) .. Wait for the new sequel .. in the Trilogy whenever that comes .. waiting to see how Ash acts as the New Sarkaar ..

Not sure when the next chance comes .. Once college starts .. will be tough to go for movies ..

God Proposes , Man Disposes

2008-06-12T22:26:00.003+05:30

Hmm Got this thought from my akka .. a friends sister whos been more than a sister to me .. She just happ to tell me this last week during our daily chats .. Believe this is true for all .. Especially what we did .. Nothing is in our hands as a matter of fact .. Dont ask me why & all dat .. Will post on this in a few days .. till then .. Enjoy ..

It Hurts ...

2008-06-08T17:15:00.007+05:30

Planning to write this over a few posts .. A True account of what happened to a friend .. I still don't know the complete details so cant write all on this at once .. Though most of whats written is a true first hand account of all that has happened, still for the ease of you guys will be writing it in a different way and may add a few things wherever necessary without distorting any facts ..

I really don't know how this is gonna turn out .. Just trying my hands at blogging for someone else .. Someone whom i have over the last few months started to got to know closely slowly ..This is something which i had posted on earlier .. but trying my hand again at writing it from a different perspective.

Currently sitting n crackin my Brains on how to make the start .. A Good Start made is Half thing done well. Heartbreaks are BAD .. Whenever they happen .. One person is always in pain .. Some people dont tend to understand that Heart is something very precious and not always does it fall in luv with sm1.. I am an exception .. Got used to having it broken .... That was just for the laughs .. Dont wanna make this too serious so will have smthings put in as well 2 bring some humour in this ..

This is no different from a typical boy meets girl wooes her she holds on then relents and gives in .. and then .. comes the twist .. Things aint as straight as they look to the eye .. complexities galore .. and n d end guy gives up and cooks up a story .. Parents are not OK with the match .. and wont work out ..

Now to start with, It all started in a office in Mumbai, An Office Romance .. a simple story .. colleague acchi lagti hai .. Working in same department .. so chances of sparks flying are high and so did they .. Slowly the like started developing into affection .. and from being just a colleague there was a progression to a new level a GOOD FRIEND.. Now that was not what the GUY wanted to, for he had different things in his plan .. So there he was trying to woo the gal in every possible way that he could as he considered her as the gal of his dreams, D Ultimate one ..

Many a times we dont let our brain do the thinking and its in these cases that we tend to make mistakes .. and mistakes of falling in Luv .. giving in to the demands of the other person .. Things sometimes do take a funny turn and we realise this a tad too late in life .. but by then .. nothing can be done and we have to quietly suffer .. Most of the problems we have in life are due to either having said YES too early in life .. or having said NO too late.

Then once the guy was sure he had wooed the gal .. Romance started to blossom between the two .. Things r always fine till they go ur way .. in this case .. the Guy moved to another office still professing .. unending love for the gal in his life .. Chat Messengers in Office more so free with the email software nowadays are a BOON especially during these times & with passing days .. the girl knew she had time running out on her side .. Strangely .. the time seems to move faster for gals than guys .. and most ppl who don't get married by their mid or late 20's are looked upon as if something is really wrong with them .. and they r an Outcast .. and then .. there comes a time when u need 2 finalize urself on what path u taking in life .. same happened .. When confronted with a definitive answer .. the guys like .. Sorry .. Parents r not OK . I cant Marry you .. Sorry .. Dats one word the British gave us .. and now C where all we use it .. Kill any1 and say sorry .. Do the worst thing possible and still say SORRY !!!

The reason i chose to blog this here is not to show .. how it hurts or how it affects .. Guys .. we all know .. its tough getting out of love and it actually does HURT ..Ask this to someone whos had his / her TRUST broken and then u will understand what i mean .. SOmethings can never be expressed and in this case the individual experience differs

I did post in one of the previous posts of mine on how badly it hurts .. I have gone through it .. and believe me the more u r in a relationship the tough it is to get out of one .. In my case .. it was ok .. did happen 2 get out of it soon .. But i have seen people who take too long a time to get out of it .. and at times .. people still hold on to it .. just in the hope that things may someday change the turn ..Guys .. Never EVer break a Persons heart .. and dont ever give away the TRUST that someone has in u .. For when a GIRL decides on loving someone she trusts the guy more than anything else .. and then when that TRUST is broken .. shes SHATTERED .. Those with weak hearts .. even go to the extent of Hurting themselves .. which in their case for them looks fine .. but .. believe me .. is a very wrong thing to do .. I would never ever think of doing that and would ask all of u to never by mistake also think of doing such a thing .. A girls tears r very precious and never be the reason for them ..

Sorry in case i got 2 senti n this .. D person is sm1 close to me .. hence those lines ..

Believe such experiences help us .. in our lives by making us aware of where we need out lives right and also in ensuring that we can be a bit more closely guarded on things in life ..

been writing this post since long .. hence there are many loose ends here .. will try and sit some day .. and then tighten them .. Things r now back in shape for her .. With her having finally decided to look over things in life .. and make a new beginning .. I am sure .. She will very soon have a new chapter in her life .. My Best Wishes for her .. :) Take care dear ..

A Different Perspective

2008-06-08T11:19:00.007+05:30

Few days ago i wrote on how i felt abt certain things .. and that was all from my perspective .. Quite a few people did tell me that what i wrote was all from a GUYS perspective .. Quite true .. Being a guy thats whats i would know better, then i thought why not try and find out .. about the same things from a girls perspective .. how is it that she thinks of these things in life .. Whats that goes in her mind .. Plan to write some of it .. Part from what i have gathered from speaking with people and part of it from Tai .. with whom i had a long chat on this ..

Here it is ..

Things are very different for gals than they r for guys, especially in such matters pertaining to luv and relationships. Its pretty simple for guys .. while for gals it is much more .. involves thinking on various things before they even take the first step of getting ready to tell the guy abt their feelings ..

Many a times the fear that they may tend to loose a guy stops them from expressing about their feelings .. gals tend to give much more importance to friendship with a person and wud hence not like 2 loose the person by lettin him know of her feelings for him.

These r some of the things

Most often than not, there always exists a fear in the persons mind .. What if he says NO. This is also true for guys but then, Guys as they r always tend to overlook this. Dats why many of them loose a friend since the girl does not accept them, while a gal would never like to loose a friend and in the bargain would not mind loosing out on the guy. Friends are always D BEST
Many a times both the person happen to be very good friends and in such situations it tends to be very tough for the other person to say no. The comfort factor is always there but then still saying NO to a proposal from a girl is very difficult especially when both of them have a very good n strong friendship between them. Many a times people are in this Quandary on how to go ahead .. One one hand u may end up loosing a friend with your response and on the other hand there may be already someone in your life or you may have never looked at her from that view.
To avoid things getting bad .. most ppl tend to close their friendship with ppl both Guys and Gals once they know that a person has feelings for him / her much more than as a normal friend ..

None of us would like to go through any of what is stated above .. hence to avoid getting spoiling things people prefer to keep their MOUTHS SHUT.

This us more true with gals than with guys .. I can vouch for this atleast .. A Guy will have no qualms telling the girl even though that may mean an end to their relationship while a gal will generally tend to speak with the guy more as a friend and avoid tellin him of her feelings. So to avoid all this many gals do not open their mouth, as they would prefer to Cherish their friendship with people rather than anything else ..

Some views of a different perspective that i did manage to write upon .. Did add wherever i did find it appropriate ..

Do feel free to comment for any changes for errors that may have crept in this post .. Been spending quite an amount of my leisure time blogging .. a welcome change for me .. well nothing else to do u see .. With it pouring Cats N Dogs .. Better to stay indoors rather than get caught in the HEAVY DOWNPOUR that the city is currently experiencing ..

This is all in this post .. Have 2 more to finish today .. Hope to get time for that as well ..

A Big thank u to all of those who helped me write the above .. Have a gr8 weekend .. Njoy .. :)

Understanding Self

2008-06-05T22:53:00.002+05:30

Was finally in a very gud mood today, Did blog on a topic which was very dear to my heart .. was bottling in me for long and i knew i had 2 take it out .. Did nt want 2 feel depressed holding it in me .. So finally got it all out .. I had a gr8 time though today .. having received appreciation from the person .. abt whom i wrote in the blog .. plus feeling content that i did have a gr8 time blogging on it .. Quite a few more to write on .. Will be blogging in smaller posts though ..

Thanks for your time .. Happy Reading .. :)

Agony of Waiting

2008-06-05T08:20:00.003+05:30

Hie

Been thinking on this for long but somehow never managed to get time to work on this. So for a change today thought lets start the day blogging on something which i feel strongly about and which i am sure all of u will agree especially people who have gone through what i am relating in here ..

Most often than not, we end up goin through this .. We eagerly wait for things to happen in life .. and in the end things don't usually happen the way we want it to happen .. Since many a times .. those are not Destined for us.

Just sharing few instances from what i have seen in people around me and my personal as well ..

Like i n my case its not been that bad though .. I did like someone and managed to tell her that .. and i also got an answer on the same pretty soon .. Atleast i did have to live my life hoping that she wud say yes. The anxiety a person goes through during this phase kills him / her. I have had a small experience of it and believe me the last things that was left for me was to be officially declared as Insane :D .. The second part was an exaggeration.. Things at times do get on your nerves.. and then once they don't happen the way u want them to or u don't get the person people at times do happen 2 go in to a depression.

One more instance has been of a friend of mine .. She had sm1 who was after her for a long time .. trying every trick in the trade to woo her in his life .. She did ignore him for long .. and then finally gave in .. Things were initially good .. but when things started to get serious .. There came a Big Question, is the family ready ?? The guy kept on avoiding the questions .. and then one fine day the answer was NO, Family will not AGREE. I know what that person has gone through .. But thats something not even your enemies should go through.

One basic rule guys please remember, if u love someone and have the guts to go and propose to her, Also remember to have the GUTS to stand against ur family .. Don't propose to someone .. make that person feel special and then leave that person later in the lurch coz your family does not approve .. Believe me its a really bad experience that a person goes through in this situation and the pain can be understood only by the person whos gone through it. There are some things in life which we learn the HARD BITTER way and this is one of them. This is true for both Guys & Gals .. though the culprits in most of the cases happen 2 be guys, who cant seem to take decisions when they need to ..

One thing i wanted 2 add here was< style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">Intentions amptly clear before you get in to a relationship so that the other person also knows what he / she is getting in to ..

Thought the above was related to love marriage , even in case of arranged marriages, if u happen to like someone, Tell that person then & there. Dont keep that person hanging in mid air expecting a response from you and in the end ending up in despair. Though these days we believe a lot of Kundli matching and wait for things like these to get done first, many a times in the interim we miss out on someone due to time spent in the uncessary things like the one i mentioned above. The other person may also be hoping that things will work out and start hoping .. But again due to the time gap and lack of Interest .. End in despair .. Remember Whats Destined to Happen will happen. Even a couple with a perfectly matching Horoscope may go through HELL later on in life and those not matching may lead a life very happily .. Its all the game played by the planets and depends more so on the art and knowledge of the person doing the reading .. and dats where the fault always lies ..

Why i wanted to blog on this so early in the day was to get myself cleaned of all dats been bottling up inside my head and heart and also 2 ensure that i start my day on a very good note .. rather than a depressing note

There are many things happening in life .. Missing mom a lot these days .. since she was always there for me whenever i used 2 feel :( but believe God had some other plans in life for us .. thats why he took her away .. Its been around 10 mnths since she passed away and one of the toughest times of my life ..

Dads currently not in town, in native. He also has some issues there to resolve without which there no point in him coming back as the issue will raise its UGLY head again ..

With me things are going well .. Grappling as usual with many things in life .. Sometimes life goes toooo fast .. along a twisty road that i sometimes get baffled on WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING IN MY LIFE !!! Not in a good frame of mind now .. But thats fine .. Do go along the emotional way at times .. esp when i miss mom
, something that i am getting used to living with. Nothing int thats happ in my life that i can blog about .. Just hoping that not just me but none of us ever get to go through through this emotional trauma, the one i wrote about above ..

On a related note, remember what dad told me once .. Always believe in the philosophy of Karma. Do Good to all, Never Bad. Don't Expect anything for the good that you do in life .. For as they say " U will Reap as u have sown "

Whatever thats written for us to suffer can never be missed. If we are destined 2 go through Pain, We have to no matter what we Do, Just that the goodness we do to people will go a long way in reducing the sufferings & the pain that we will have to undergo. Never Break someones heart & Never be the reason for tears in someones eyes, Always be the reason for a Smile.. A Girls tears are always precious so take care that u r never the cause of one .. Think wrote too much of Gyaan out here ..

Hope u guys have a gr8 day .. I have a hectic schedule today and will be out of office travelling between my offices ..

Take Care Buddies .. Do stay n touch .. Regards .. Ananth

Disclaimer

PS : What i wrote above is also what is currently / has been my state. None of the above is fiction and is based on true events happening in peoples lives. Any resemblance to a person is just co-incidence .. you were never in my mind when i wrote this :D ..

Wanted 2 write more .. But gotta get back to work as well .. Ciao Amigos .. Have a gr8 day ahead

Determination

2008-05-31T22:37:00.002+05:30

Determination is what leads a person to accomplish any task in this world ..The resolve a person makes to get over something makes him / her cover any obstacles that may be there in the path ..

Determination to accomplish a task will help us get over anything ..I have this friend of mine .. who's recently broke off from her guy .. The guy has been holding on to this reply abt their future for long .. and kept her in suspense on whats their future course .. Finally she was told its not gonna work out and he wants 2 separate ,, know hw it hits a person in such cases .. and then this person was too :( .. and quiet .. then one day .. she did happen 2 tell me what happened and after few days we had a talk on this .. initially i felt shes sm1 who's too quiet .. but then slowly started to know her .. and now .. can say know her well .. Am happy at the way things have shaped .. Just shows that if someone has a determination to get out of the worst of times .. a person will come out of it very well ..

Cutting it short .. gotta go to sleep .. Too many loose ends also here will try n put them in place over the weekend

Change

2008-05-28T23:57:00.004+05:30

Change is the only thing thats constant in life ..There are numerous instances that all of us will recollect abt ourselves that we can quote in this regards .. so i am not posting anything .. Sometimes just thinking whether i wud be better in a diff line altogether .. writing for instance but then feel .. i aint a good writer .., i jst write what comes from my mind and heart and dont give a second thought on whats rite and whats not ..

Have been a bit tied up with work .. and partly also due to my relocation to FORT .. Quite a few things happening in life but wont blog on them now .. Will do when the time is rite .. The weekend was also a bit tiring .. and much well spent .. Got to spend good quality time with a friend after a long time .. Hope to have many such conversations ahead ..

Rushing to Bed now .. Have 2 reach work so that i can packup early for the evening .,,.Hope to meet ya soon .. Take care dear .. :-)

Wunderful Weekend !!!

2008-05-19T12:39:00.002+05:30

Hi

This weekend was a very good one .. Was out with colleagues and friends to a place called Phansad, which is about 50 kms from Alibaug .. In the end happy that i went there .. Will be posting the links here of the snaps ..

http://picasaweb.google.co.uk/anantha.bhaktha/Phansad?authkey=qfOjzsT_uDw

Had gr8 fun there .. Thoroughly enjoyed .. We left mumbai on saturday noon around 2 pm, reached the place around 7:30 pm .. had some food to eat and then on a Jungle Trek in the middle of the night .. The jungle was pretty cool and dense at many places where we could not even see the moonlight coming down ..

Next day early morning we left at 6am for a jungle trek .. walked around 16 kms .. and saw a quite a variety of wildlife .. Quite a few pugmarks of a cheetah, deer and also met many monkeys along the way ..

Overall a well spent weekend .. something i enjoyed a lot after a long time ..Do check the snaps ..

Value of Relationships

2008-05-05T22:16:00.005+05:30

Many a times in life, we never value the people who are a part of our life especially our near and dear ones .. We always tend to take things for granted and then when they r not here we miss them the most and regret not having given them the care and affection they deserved when they were alive .. Many a times that one line of care and affection could have been what that person may have lived all his / her life for .. and then .. we go in grief for all of this .. This aint whats happened in my life but something that i have learnt over a period of time from my interactions with people .. We often do things which at that point of time we don't feel bad about but later on when the stark reality strikes us ,, It sometimes does shock us so much that we hardly find .. the courage to come forward and accept the reality thats in front of us ..

Have had a mixed share of many such emotional moments .. Being STABBED IN THE BACK by my so called good wishers as also taken on a joy ride by others .. Never felt Hurt as such as it was i in the first place who should be blamed for allowing that person to take liberty on me and HURT me in life..

The past one year in College has brought together a lot of things .. One thing i have learnt is Never take people on their face value . How much ever close they may be to you .. Also have come across many people who talk very sweet in front but once u Turn ur back .. Turn the Biggest BITCHES that you would ever imagine in your life.. Not naming anyone .. But those who know me , know whom i am referring to .. Have had quite a few such instances .. which has just made a reserved person .. now much different from what i was earlier .. Believe its better to be a close guarded person rather than be jolly with all and then let people HUrt u .. Not singling out females out here .. But have had a major share of setbacks from them including a few whom i considered were true at heart but in the end turned out to the most sadistic persons i could ever come across.
On the other hand .. sometimes feel .. how far do u allow a person to take u for a ride .. To avoid something you start with a lie .. and in the end to keep up that one lie .. u keep spinning yarns .. In the end when u know u have reached ur limits .. and cant carry it longer .. spill the beans and come up with the Truth. Do people ever feel and understand, How bad the other person feels and what all do they go through .. esp the pain and emotional trauma that they may have gone so in the beginning as a part of the lie ..
Dont wanna talk much on this or disclose any identities ..
Have not been in a good mood for the past few days .. since was weighed down a bit by things that were happening in my life. Hopefully with me deciding to stay away from all these things .. should not have any more shocks ..
One advise .. Never Trust a person blindly how much ever close u may be with him / her, as chances are when they hit u back .. U may be Heartbroken and left with little hope to get up and Fight back.
Have made quite a few very good friends in the first year and with whom i plan to strengthen the bond of friendship to make it much more stronger than it is currently ..
Hoping to start the next year in college on a much better note in July .. Hope to keep blogging now as and when i get time .. Take Care Amigos ..

Bon Soiree ..:)

Sem II - Ending it Up

2008-05-04T17:28:00.005+05:30

Hi Something that i forgot to blog about .. Had a nice ending to my 2nd sem .. We had all planned of having a cool dinner wherein some of us would be together and have a nice dinner and chat about .. We finally did manage to go for dinner to a good decent joint .. and what followed later was something which we never expected .. We all finally managed to have a no holds barred talks on a variety of topics .. In the meanwhile also managed to have good food and some nice fun .. It was truly an evening well spent .. With all of us having got to know the other person better .. The Food was good and so was the overall mood around.

In the end we wrapped it all with some scoops of Frozen Desserts at Baskins .. Would have spent more time had it not been for it getting too late .. We were already around 11:30 by the time we were done with the dinner and ice creams.

Hoping to have many more such memorable instances and also strengthening our Bond of Friendship in the coming years.

Nomophobia !!!

2008-05-03T21:23:00.002+05:30

Hi

Been finally relaxing and getting a taste of hectic work .. Slowly catching up on pending work and plan to bring it all on track. Lets c how it goes ..

Now coming to my current post .. Dats Nomophobia - Fear of Staying away from cell phones. Nomophobia is the fear of being out of mobile phone contact. My Cell phone is currently under repair since i had used the joy stick and key pad keys a bit too much ,,.. Will be away from most of my contacts and messages .. have a spare office phone which i will be using but havent added any telephone nos of friends as i wanna stay away from mobile as such for a few days .. Wanna see for myself whether i am also a NOMPHOBIAC as they may call such peoples.

Will know by wednesday as to what my state is when i hope to get my phone back .. Till then Its Reliance keeping me company .. Take care .. Enjoy ur weekends ..

Phinally It Ended !!!!

2008-05-01T18:53:00.004+05:30

I am done with my 2nd Sem exams .. a few days ago and thereby also signaling the completion of the 1st year of my 3 year MBA programme. Waiting eagerly for the results which will be mostly out by 25th of this month .. and post which i may need to start my preparations for supplementary exams for Research, the subject i did not do well. Have had probs with Maths since childhood and even now :(. Thats been one subject which has never been understood by me ..

Finally Happy the way things went .. Atlast its ended and one tension gone .. Waiting eagerly for the next sem to start from the 1st of July 08. Thats gonna be interesting and also much more hectic with University Exams thrown in for 3 subjects .. Lets c What the coming month has in store for me .. The last few months have made me aware of a lot of things .. Will be posting on tat in the appropriate blogs ..

Three Down , Three to Go :)

2008-04-24T22:42:00.002+05:30

Hi

This week has been a hectic one with exams going on and i being forced to do something i dont like .. Study .. :(

DOne with three papers and pretty satisfied with my performance .. have three more to come and all are theory papers so all that i need to do is mugup the subjects by rote and write like a parrot ...

Will come back with normal BIG posts in another weeks time by which time i expect to be done with my exams .. and get back in the GROOVE ..

Take care .. and Thanks for your wishes .. prayers & Blessings ..

Taking a Break

2008-04-18T10:49:00.002+05:30

Hi

Its been a fortnight since i blogged. Of Late Work and college has been keeping me occupied most of the time. WOrk is getting too hectic with planing also being done for the impending merger. Have exams starting from tomorrow and hence will be taking a break from Work & being online much.

There have been quite a things happening off late in life which i am trying to come to terms with and other issues. Something about which i wont post out here ..

Take care .. Catch ya in another fortnight .. Will be back online by the month end .. Stay n touch Amigos ..

All D Best !!!

Weekly Update

2008-04-06T22:50:00.002+05:30

The past week has been a good one .. Life's been still going the roller coaster ride .. Though the shocks have reduced a lot .. The week has been as such a very good one .,.. for me on the Personal Front .. Most issues in life have been resolved ,... Annual day finally happened without any glitches and in the end we were all happy at having ensured that it went off without any glitches. :)

Now coming to personal life .. Been going good .. Not much happening that i can write here about .. Getting to know people better these days and being cautious and away from the BACK STABBERS. Lets c how it goes .. hope to write something .. soon ..

Take Care buddies .. God Bless All

Ciao ..

Issues ..

2008-04-01T23:02:00.003+05:30

Hi

Wanted to write quite a few things but havent been able to off late. A Bit bogged down by personal issues .. So have been :( at times. Nothing much to worry about as much .. Just that its a passing phase and with time will be fine .. Had a long chat with a friend and my akka in US. Both of them have been a gr8 support to me .. especially on me speaking about my personal issues.

Will post by the weekend .. Take care buddies ..

Cant People Grow Up

2008-03-26T23:45:00.002+05:30

Hi

been about a week since i last posted smthing online .. As such nothing happened much that i blog about till today. Have been having tough times both at work and at college .. Will be spending whole of tomorrow in college updating my notes ..

Now coming to what i wanted to write about .. and the reason for me writing my blog today .. Had a pretty good time and it has also been a fulfilling one. the weeks been hectic still..

One thing i wrote this blog is i was very sad at whatever i got to know today .. Cant People ever UNDERSTAND that a GUY & GAL can be GOOD FRIENDS. I believe there are still a lot of people around .. Who still cant fathom the fact that .. a Guy & a GAL can be very good friends .. One of the things dats maybe helped these IDIOTS in their thinking is the fact that these days i am more seen in canteen with other people .. mostly gals .. and with a new girl daily .. Have my friends circle increasing .. so keep meeting newer people and make friendship. There are some people whom i know of .. Who dont bother abt teasin or taunting people on their friendship with me .. Maybe just coz this person happens to sit with me in class or is with me in canteen regularly .. These IDIOT rumour mongers get time and occasion to start linking any1 with any1, Just made me worried .. Whether i shud continue interacting more with other or limit my conversations., I care a DAMN for myself but never want a gurls name to be spoiled or for that matter any linkages .. Though ppl tell me ignore these things .. but .. WHY create such situations when there is actually nothing ...

Sorry Buddies .. Cutting this short .. Gotta go to sleep and then to college early tomorrow morning ...

Take Care Amigos .. Ciao ..

RACE !!

2008-03-24T23:27:00.003+05:30

Had a nice lazy weekend .. 4 days HOLIDAYS .. Doing nothing much ..was in college most of the time .. catching up on my pending home work and then getting back to studies .. slowly getting used to preparing for the exams ..

Office started again .. and dats hectic .. btw .. I had a very nice evening yesterday .. Went for the 6:30 show of RACE, a nice movie .. well made though there could have been some changes which wud have made it better. FUll of twists and turns .. as any Abbas Mustan movie would be. Definitely worth a one time watch .. Also had good company for the movie .. Now lets not talk about that and get back to the Movie .. All the actors have done a good role.. Though the actresses have been better .. Seems like the fashion designer did not get paid well .. so he made clothes which showed more than they should have HID !! Katrina, Bips & Sameera have all excelled in this one thing, showing what they GOT .. Am sure .. there will be many ppl who will go to see the movie just for this !!! GOD DAMN THE STORY !!! WHen the Babes are so HOT !! .. Who cares for the Story.

Cutting that short .. The movie is good, locales have been gr8 and believe most of it or probably all of it has been shot outside the country ..Overall a good action flick .. Sorry guys .. I aint posting a review here .. Thats a job best left to the CRITICS to do .. My view is .. The movie is good and definitely worth one watch .. It will all around keep u on the edge of ur seat .. Like it did keep me ..

Sorry Buddies .. Cutting this post here .. TOo late and have to go to office pretty early .. Lots of pending stuff and god knows when my deadlines would be MET.

Take care .. Bon Nuit .. Dats Gud Nite in french .. Adios Amigos .. :)

World's - Pretty Small Place

2008-03-20T14:02:00.003+05:30

Hi

Its been quite some time since i blogged. One been too busy with college and also work which has been running after me making me at times go mad with pressures. Finally done with my appraisals after lots of hiccups and must say it has come out well. Though i knew where i have been lacking and frankly did not expect a good rating, was surprised at the final outcome. Waiting for the final result 2 be out in April end , when i will be able to see the final monetary outcome. The coming years gonna get more challenging and even more hectic .. especially the fact that i now need to build a bigger team and get to leading it in another 6 mnths. Believe as part of the career progression, need to start managing Teams so that in due course of time, i get ready for the next career progression.

College has been going good. Its getting more hectic as the days go by. Exam dates are out and start on the 19th of April .. In between i still have many lectures to attend to and also the college annual day , a part of which i am helping in the organizing. Hopefully things shud fall in place and will back to serious studies by the 1st week of April. Plan to keep up with the scores in the 1st sem , though that looks kinda tough. This sem has more of theory subjects and many of them pretty boring.

Believe there have been quite a few things that have happened in the past month, though i do not recollect all, will try and post a few.

Coming to why i started with this post .. and the title .. People always say .. The worlds a pretty small place .. and We will bump in to people one day or the other and later on realise that OH !! We are related .. This happened to me a few weeks ago. Have this person in college .. Whos a close friend of my friend .. Initially did not speak much with her .. and then when i started speaking .. One fine day i get to know we r both related .. Now that was something of a SHOCK !!! and now .. with the Ice broken .. I am on speaking terms with her .. The shell has broken.

Btw .. There have been quite a few things happening .. Getting to learn a lot from people as days are passing by. Cant name them .. So wont write their names, But would like to THANK ALL for having made a small difference in my life ..

Wont be writing much now, got to finish projects and hope to update this as and when i get time .. Which i believe will be tough to get as days pass by.

Do still stay n touch .. Take Care Amigos ..

Heart Break

2008-02-17T22:11:00.004+05:30

Hi Friends ..

Its been quite a long time since i posted any posts .. Have been a bit tied up with things both in personal, official life and in college going on a hectic pace ..Its been around a month since i posted anything .. life has been taking too high turns since then ,, Some good , sopme bad .. All part of life and we need to take them the way they come to us .. No second thoughts on that or Regrets for having done anything ..

To start with I am now much relaxed abt things happening in life than i was a month ago. Dads back home and i am very happy now .. Quite a few things have also happened in between about which i will gradually write about in this post.

To start with .. Its getting more and more hectic .. both at college and at work .. personal life was on a very hectic phase at the start of the month .. but now that ma family is back home its much more relaxed. I cant be the carefree person i was earlier as i now also need to take care of dad .. and things at home ..

Now coming to personal life .. Life has been on a roller coaster ride .. I had my sweet little sis whos gonna be a doc soon pay a visit to mumbai .. Had a nice time with her whatever few hours that i got to spend with her after keeping her awake since morning .. She was giving me her advise on how to go ahead in my love life .. she was more angry on me when i told her that for me any1 will do while she said i shud get sm1 whos from our caste and then also whom she approved ... 1 more addition to the list of people who need to approve :(

It was nice to talk with her .. Miss them a lot .. and she also happens to my favourite of all my cousin sisters .. A Bright Budding Doctor .. and then .. once i reached aunts place .. it was then hush hush .. lest any1 over hears what we speak, she saw the snap and liked her .. Said i shud be thankful .. if an idiot like me gets her ..

She did not know then that i have received her response on this issue, showed it to her in the train and ... then it was more of gyaan for me .. Anyways dats the Current End of my Love chapter .. I wont type here whats been messaged to me .. for i believe i need to keep the privacy of the person whos sent me the message .. Like SRK says in OSO, Picture Abhi Baaki hai Bidu !!!.. U never know which side of the table the game turns .. and like they always say " If someone leaves u don't HOLD them back .. If they were yours they would not have left u in the first place or they would come back on their own"

Its tough to get it out of yourself .. Atleast not so soon .. All dat i have now decided is that i wont let this come between our friendship and i will always b friends with her .. I will never let this feeling come between our friendship, thats for sure .. As for her No idea .. There are quite a few things i wanted to write about but then i think i will not be maintaining the privacy i need to maintain by blogging it for the whole world to see.

Its just that contrary to what i have been told, I am seeing a HUGE change in the behaviour .. and dont know which side its gonna go .. Will always hope for the better

Sorry Buddies ,, I gotta cut this short .. Need to catch up on sleep and also get up early in the morning .. QUite a few things to attend to in Office early morning ..

Thanks for spending time to go through this .. Please do not ask me WHO SHE IS !!! I wont Answer ..

Gud Nite .. HappY Reading .. god BlEss all :)

Do V Think B4 V LUV ??

2008-01-27T22:26:00.000+05:30

Before i start with writing this post, A friends dad passed away yesterday (monday) night around 8pm. He was unwell for few days and had developed some health complications as well. Hope God gives salvation to his soul and strength and courage to tide over these tough times to my friend. God Bless All. I pray that her dads soul rests in peace and always showers blessings on her family and herself.

Have been through this just 4 months ago so know how it feels, The loss of loosing a close relative can never be done good by anyone else in life. I did write about my own story of how i came to terms with the loss in my life. Do go through that as well in case you have time

Coming to my post this week, Last week i had a discussion with a friend of mine on my way back from college.. especially on the fact that do we actually Think before Loving / Liking someone or do we actually think before we decide loving / liking the other person. Don't think its possible for us to think before liking / loving someone .. As someone rightly said it .. If u think u luv sm1 ask yourself this question, What is is that u like about the person & If u have an answer then your mind loves that person, but if u don't have any answer then your Heart loves that person. Initially it was my Heart which liked her but when i got to know that she already luvs sm1 else .. It retreated. I have accepted it that NOTHING is possible now between me and her (Though there maybe a small chance still or NONE and will be happy if i get that chance :-) No one likes loosing in this till DEFEAT strikes in your face) .. Will always be good friends for life. I am also not that person who will think BAD about the person whom i liked just coz it did not work out with me and then think bad abt her. Never will i EVER DO DAT AND THINK EVIL OF HER JUST COZ I DID NOT GET HER. Believe in Destiny and If Its Destined to Happen it WILL, Else .. She was NEVER there in the 1st place. Its DAT SIMPLE. Lets c how it goes ahead in life.

I have just gone through this and trying to come to terms with reality. Its actually tough to get over this phase. Still trying to find my way out of the current mess i am in. Not a mess as such .. all my own creation. No one to blame for this still just that sometimes feel things would have been better. Human mind is such an amazing thing which no one in this world will ever be able to understand. Quite a few things happening at my end .. Have after long started shedding weight and a few people did actually comment that i am looking much better. For me though the realization was always there since, my trousers now fit me much better than they earlier used to..

Again was having a nice chat with a friend after a long time .. on gtalk .. spoke for about 2 hours today .. and the talk was pretty good .. Spoke on a wide range of topics and had a nice time debating and fighting on them .. Thanks buddy ..

Cutting this short .. Goin to sleep ... have to wake up early to go for my Jog and then rush to office..

Take care AMigos .. Adios .. Astalavista .. Gud nite ..

Back to Basics

2008-01-23T23:06:00.000+05:30

Hi

Been quite some time since i blogged. Been too tied up with work and college. College is getting more hectic as the days go by and work pressure is also building up. Have had not a good last week , still quite memorable as i had several firsts then in that week. Dont wanna dwell much in detail. I am doing pretty fine, just a bit busy these days. Trying to grapple with life and the pace of things that are coming at me. Work is getting too hectic and have quite a few meetings to attend, college is dancing too much. Personal life is also giving some breaks in between and quite a few hiccups.. At this time nothing much happening that i can write about. Quite a few developments are under way including few things in personal life and hope to get them fixed by this month end or my mid next month. Hopefully should go my way soon now. Wont disclose those till the time i get it done, so till then let me manage and see how i can get them my way. All i Can tell you i am going to go for it till i see no Hope at the End of the Tunnel. Those who know me well and know how things are in life, know what i am referring here.

Take care .. n thanks for spending some time in going through this.

Ek Chhoti Si Love Story

2008-01-19T09:18:00.000+05:30

Hi

Hope you guys doing gr8 .. Had deleted one of my previous posts and now i am posting an update on that. In case you are not aware of what it was on, good for those who were aware, go through this ..

I did like someone and was thinking of how to tell her. Just to update all the chapters CLOSED. The story ended b4 it even began. She luvs someone else. Don't wanna go in to the details of dis. Like they say .. Alls That Happens, Happens for the Better.

No Regrets 4 anything and like they say U need to get ahead in life .. and be a Rolling Stone .. for Rolling Stones never gather MOSS. I would like to thank 2 people .. One a senior of mine in college and another a batch mate of mine. The conversations i had with these two people have made me a lot more wiser now and has made me realise that whenever we decide on doing anything, be it whatever in life, Ensure you have thought of everything including the nitty gritties.

Btw for those who did not know, It was my 27th Birthday yesterday and Had a pretty good time. Office was too hectic with so many personal calls to attend that my battery literally ran out of power by the time i was in college. Spoke with a few friends after a long time for a very very long time .. Felt better .. The Day started on a very good note and ended on a not so good note .. Met Tai on my way back home at night. Cud not speak with her for long as she had to rush back home after the Play that she attended.. Hope to catch her today in college.

Thats all i have for today .. Plan to go out for lunch .. Lets c how it all goes and whether i happen to go out with Her

All By Urself !!

2008-01-13T21:50:00.000+05:30

All of us at times have had this desire to stay alone for some time just to experience how it feels to stay alone all by yourself and take care of the house and other stuff. Like others I also did have this desire but never got it fulfilled for 25 years (Maybe even god wanted to wait till i was ready to handle what was in store for me) till april last year. Mom was unwell and we had her shifted to Manipal for further treatment & diagnosis. There we found she had Potts Spine (Tuberculosis of the Spine) and she had to be operated urgently as her bones had started to disintegrate. During the period that i was in manipal my younger brother was alone in Mumbai while i was there with Dad n Mom. Mom was operated on 1st May 07 and was in hospital till May end after which she was discharged and was staying at my Uncles place in Udupi till she passed away on 9th Aug.

During the period that she was in Udupi post her operation i was here in Mumbai with my younger brother so practically not alone. In a few months once mom had recovered my brother went back to Udupi to bring mom and dad back home. Not sure what to call it , Bad luck or Gods will, Mom passed away there. By then i had slowly started getting myself used to staying alone in the hope that this will not be long as my family will soon be back with me and we will all be together once again. But that was never to be.

What was initially supposed to be a short time span has now turned out to be 6 months long .. I do not have any regrets in spending this time alone. Its just that this phase of my life has made me realize how important our relatives and family is to us. When we have people around me we never realize their importance till the time they are away from us. I have been now staying alone all by myself since June 07 and i believe this phase has been the best of my life. This phase has given me too trying times especially with passing away of Mom is Aug and subsequent issues. Looking back at how days have gone by, i feel may be that was just a way god wanted me to grow up and understand the importance of people in life.

Since i started staying alone, i have now become aware of how tough leading a life all by urself is. My typical day schedule is like this : get up at 6:45 reach office by 8, leave in the evening for college by 5:30 and then get off to college for lectures which start at 6:30 and get over by 9:30. Reach home after having dinner by around 10:30 after which i wash my clothes and sit down on my comp checking mails or blogging .. Hit the bed by around 11:30 - 12 am .. and then next day morning the cycle is same .. Starting with getting up at 6:45. Initially also had fear of staying home alone .. especially when a glass falls down and the sounds and stuff alike .. Slowly thats also gone .. In my case i believe its a combination of my resolve and decision to stay firmly without bowing down to issues and situation that i am now WHAT I AM

During the last few months, I have had my share of everything, cleaning house 2 times a week, washing clothes every 2 days, ironing them, keeping a tab of bills , stuffing my fridge with my essentials .. Juices and Buttermilk. Sometimes feel this is the rite time for me to get married, a thought that just passed my mind this weekend when i was speaking with a friend. As of now my resolve is not to get married, considering the fact that with such a busy schedule i hardly get time for myself where the hell do i get time for her. Looking at various options currently though the decision is a big NO. Wont fall for it unless i get someone who suits the BILL and who's ready to give me time and commitment. I think i may have someone in Radar, lets c how it goes. Till i get to know more about her and speak with her, It all remains under wraps. Need to do the ground work before i even think of asking her for a date.. Shes just a friend to me .. and I am not sure whether she will progress ahead .. Tough making the first move & breaking the Ice on this topic since our normal talks have never centered on this..

Till i get my info and stuff ready, Wont speak on this with any1. So no Point asking me questions .. You wont get any answers .. Let me first get to know about her and then once it materializes will ask her and then if it goes ahead tell you all.

Till then let it be private. Believe i wrote quite a long one, Waiting till the month end coz thats when dad and bro are scheduled to be back home. Dad will be back home after a period of 10 mnths and bro after 5 mnths. Hope that we get the happiness back in our lives.

Adieu Amigos .. Ciao .. Luv .. Ananth

Happy New Year 2008

2008-01-13T16:00:00.000+05:30

Hi

Wishing all a Happy & Prosperous 2008. Had been traveling a lot these days plus pressure at work & college meant i could not sit online for long hours to write my blog. Plus have not been kinda well for the past few days. Have had severe cold and chest congestion. Now getting back to my blog, Things have been kinda smooth if not too hectic. Not many probs in life .. Finances running tight since its th last quarter of the year and i have had to resort to a combination of tax saving methods to cut short my Tax xposure. Unlike the previous years wherein i had been resorting to investments in small savings schemes like NSC, etc , this year have put most of my investments moolah in Long Term Mutual Funds. Have to wait for 3 yrs atleast till i am able to withdraw the money but then its worth the wait .. If the stock market continues to grow at this rate then i am sure that corpus will grow 2-3 times the current size by the time its due for redemption in 2010..

Now coming to my life .. Its been a good roller coaster ride, the bad times are still there .. Nothings wrong with me but with a few ppl close to my heart. Did write about this in an earlier post of mine .. Though was skeptical whether she would actually do it, she made me wrong and did it .. She tried destroying her self by consuming poison but then as luck would have it .. Survived .. SMS chat is my preferred medium of interacting with ppl at nite and this is what she messaged me at about 1:30 am on 6th

" ** msg m'its over'.its all over for m too.dont know whom i wud hv had shared my probs with . Thanks for being my frnd. Bye anantha.in adv wishing u happy birthday "

Since i happened to sleep early that day got to see this only when i woke up in the morning and that day happened to be a Sunday so she would not even answer my calls / reply to my messages. Finally this is what she had to tell me " I drank yes some poison but puked out everything ".

Was anyways in a bad mood with my back paining a bit and on that this message drops in .. Thankfully that day was in college all day handling the GD & PI for the new admissions so did not have any time.

Its been a week since that happened and now shes slowly getting back to accepting things in life. Shes still paranoid about her guy .. but seems to be emotionally stable now. Had her promise me she wont do anything of this sort but not sure whether she will stick to that ..

My 2nd semester in college started and this semester is going 2 be a lot more tough both in terms of the syllabus as well as the time meant for lectures. This sunday is free for me but i know for sure that starting next week its gonna be a tough time on hands .. In college 7 days a week, office 6 days a week and then hardly much time left for anything else ..

Life sure is getting too fast & hectic pluss add to it the tensions that come along .. It sure will be a long bumpy ride ahead ..

This year has started on one good note. Got to make a lot of new buddies .. Though its too early lets c what life has in store for me. Getting to know all of them better now. Talking of buddies, just noticed the fact last fortnight during a few parties females have now started giving guys competitions to guys in Drinking .. Esp i still know many guys who dont touch drinks .. it was a welcome sight to see gals having a shot at the glasses. Many prefer Vodka since its kinda smooth and does not affect much (smell / give kicks) unlike Rum or Whisky.

Been lazing at home for long today .. taking all the rest i could of the week that passed by. Hope the coming week is better as my B'day also happens to be there this week on Friday and have a long weekend Sat & Sunday off. This will also be the 1st time i will be celebrating my Bday alone without family since dad & bro are still there in Udupi and will be back home by the month end. Though Birthdays are a good occasion, still feel :-( at growing older by a year .. Will tip the scales at 27 this year ..

Thats what i gotta blog for this week, not much happening .. Will keep it updated in case there are new developments in my life. As of now no plans of anyone coming in, lets c what the future has in store for me. Do not intend on giving any surprises unless they happen to be surprises for me as well .. :-)

Hope N Pray all of you have a gr8 week and a wunderful year ahead .. God Bless All

Delhi .. Againnnn

2007-12-25T21:34:00.000+05:30

Hi

I am back in delhi now. Things are still the same though. Cold was not much but the FOG in delhi lead to my flight being delayed for around 2 hrs. Hope on my return the situation continues to be better. The last week was a much hectic one. Even yesterday was very bad. Had a lot of running around to be done since i had some very urgent data to be given. Nothing much happening in life as such .. Same old story .. Hope to wait for college to start before i get some SPICE back in life.

Nothing much to write today .. Hopefully will have some exciting things by the weekend ..

Till then Ciao .. Happy Reading

One of My Worst Days ..

2007-12-20T23:00:00.000+05:30

Hi

19th Dec 07 Was one of the worst days of my life .. I dont know how but in the end i managed to stay better and managed to retain my cool. My day started on a good note .. It was pretty ok with things being manageable .. pressure in office was still there but managed to stay n good mood and managed things.

I have a friend who's going through a crisis in her life. She's going through a rough patch in life having some tough times with her guy .. He has been doubting her and her character while in reality shes the same clean pure soul she has always been. In between this there have been issues at work .. Her Boss flirts with her and sometimes get on her nerves with some indecent and over flirtatous messages. She hates him for this but has to do with atleast till she gets herself another job.

Things were fine till noon when i got a call from her and from there started some tough times for me .. Don't know why but i happen to care a lot for ppl close to me .. and she happens to be a close friend to me ..

Was shocked and in two minds when i got her message. She had left office for home early that day and in the meanwhile was crying profusely. In the meanwhile she messaged me saying she cant leave him and that shes gonna END her LIFE. to Quote " He doesnt wanna continue with m. Neither can i think of spending my life with anyone else.i hv hurt my parents n him too. I dont have any right to live. M ending my life "I could not make out anything and tried calling so many times but was unable to get in touch .. Even when i was able to call her she did not take my call. Was worried a lot about her especially the fact that being a very emotionally weak person i was not sure whether she would handle the situation much wiser or actually comitt suicide. I still have that message with me , sometimes to remind me on how she was and how she is now .. Its taken me a lot of cajoling to make her ready to accept the fact that in case the current match does not work out she has to get ready to accepting the fact that she may have to lead her life with someone else. She was just not ready to accept anything & i was worried she may end up doing something to herself.

The last few days have been much better. She has slowly started accepting the fact that things may not go as she wants them to. Coupled with the fact is another thing thats troubling her, her mom is now not well and during this tough times its that we need our loved ones most. shes been trying hard to control her emotions but its not working out .. spoke with her a while ago around 9:30 and that time her mom was being hospitalised again.

Hope to have her better as a person especially make her ready to handle the emotional problems. Have told her to promise me that she will never ever think of doing anything of this sort again .. especially about Hurting Herself. Not sure what she will do as shes not yet promised me nor committed..

Met her at a movie yesterday Welcome .Was enjoying a change of time with friends .. Hope to see her much relaxed and in the meanwhile aslo trying to see if she can get the love of her life back .. I cant do much as i happen to know both the people here .. and the guy does nt like anyone interfering in his personal matters

Hope god ends this all well and amicably .. God Bless both of them .. Will write here as and when something materialises ..

Take Care buddies .. and B careful in luv

Trip to Delhi !!!

2007-12-19T22:38:00.000+05:30

Hi

Have been on a very bad mood since evening .. quite a few things happening in too short a time .. Will write abt that in the next post .. B4 that wanna write abt my trip to Delhi ..

Had been to Nai Delhi for 5 days last wekk and came back down with a heavy bout of flu , running nose & very bad chest congestion. Still to get out of the Chest Congestion.

My journey to Delhi was through King Fisher, considered to be the most premium airline of India, Especially with Mr Mallya giving personal attention to the selection of Air hostesses. Did not find anything interesting . even the food was normal , Jet is much better in this. In the end it all was HYPE .. Whats the use of Air Hostesses in Minis & Micro Minis and most of whom are subject to abuse by some over zealous pervert passengers .. There are such CREATURES on every flight and some travel specifically for this reason .. In the end the person taking the hit is the Poor Air Hostess as in the job she also has to suffer this silent humiliation. For the End consumer what matters is good decent food , on time performance and landing faster on thr ground rather than circling a city for minutes ..
My flight was on time on 12th and i managed to reach Delhi not too late just about 30 mts .. Since it was pretty cold and also a bit late we decided we will spend the nite at the hotel instead of venturing out and getting caught .
Was in Office for 3 days .. trying to make some ends meet in office and also finish the testing of some new applications along with my IT team. Did finish streamlining two systems .. and plan to now do the remaining in Mumbai.

In the end also managed to roam some parts of delhi .. Which included India Gate, RashtraPati Bhavan and other landmarks . also went to red fort ... Bought some sweets from Chandni Chowk which i had to bring to office and some other friends .

In the end an entertaining trip both of Official and Personal Front. Only thing which mattered abt Delhi was it was TOO CHILLING !!! I am still to get over the cold & cough which i caught when i was there. I still have cough and it pains when i try and take it out ,, hopefully shud get well soon. The chill was so much that we had to always wear a minimum of 2 sweaters to beat the cold .. With temperatures dropping to 8 degrees at night and not going above 12-14 degrees in day , the climate was too chilly .and a different experience for both me & my colleague. Having always been accustomed to Mumbai weather which even in the worst of the winters does not go below 15 degrees.. Quite rite for a nice romantic evening with a beloved.

Have uploaded some snaps on Picassa .. Do go through and have a look at delhi through my eyes

Its quite late now .. Will be logging off . Hope to write about my WORST day tomorrow .. Till then Ciao ..

Take care Buddies

My Date !!!

2007-12-17T23:51:00.000+05:30

Hi Buddies

Been out of town recently so havent been able to write much & also update my blog .. Also due to my travels there r lots of stuff which i need to write on ..but actually havent got time .. To start with will write a small post and then come back in a day or 2 to write my normal bigger ones

had my first date last week on 11th .. After lots of cajoling she finally agreed to meet me .. though there was no occasion as such but thought will finally meet the person with whom i have been interacting for so long. Out meet was nice .. we walked all the way from Lower Parel where our offices are till dadar station a distance of around 2 kms .. She was Dressed to kill and i am sure she wud have killed the hearts of quite a few ppl across the stretch we came.

Hmm nowhere did we know that the meet was a precursor to the beginning of a gr8 long lasting friendship ..

Will cut it here keeping it short .. Will write later about my lunch date with her and also my trip to delhi and not so good experiences on kingfisher.

catch ya laters

Life & its share of Problems

2007-12-09T22:41:00.000+05:30

The last 2 weeks that passed by have been too bad for me .. Hectic in office & college commitments but also personally. Dont worry nothing is wrong with me as such .. but Things have been pretty bad with people close to me .. Especially my closest friend. Quite a lot of things unfolded this week .. which made me shiver at times and on the day i spoke with her .. I could not sleep till 3 am that nite. same was the case with her since we were both busy that nite engrossed in communicating through SMS chat. Must appreciate her resolve & strength something which i have always admired in her .. She has been my support especially during the times i was going through a bad time .. Have had her cry on my shoulders for hours and on one day for around 2 hrs continuously over the phone.

We have come a long way from there .. Shes been very open with me on most things that have been happening in her life .. Then suddenly for a long time it was all quite and hush hush .. Then suddenly we happened to get back in touch .. Maybe it was destined that we were to meet .. Slowly we came back in to the relationship we were in earlier b4 she got married .. We both share a special relationship something in which we have no issues speaking with each other on our problems & without speaking much .. just by hearing the voice we get to know whats wrong .. Though this has come after a long time .. feel its much more important for us to get more comfortable and stay n touch with each other .. Plan to get to know her better ... Thanks dear for being a part of my life ..

Today was speaking with a friend from college .. about issues that keep up cropping in life .. Shes been going thru a rough patch in life .. both in personal and official life .. During our discussion and my ENLIGHTENMENT GYAAN sessions .. She popped a question at me .. WHY ME ?? .. Sounds easy to answer but its actually tough .. life's not been kind to me .. On the contrary its been TOO TOUGH .. I don't like writing about how i have been coping with it here .. as i don't believe in going BOOM BOOM about myself. Self Flattery is best but dont believe in dat. Was just speaking my friend on how its tough living all alone .. and now that i have been living alone for the past 9 months ..

Now this friend was saying .. Why is it happ with me .. Tried reasoning with her .. Its just gods way of making people understand that .. They still need to withstand and have a lot to fight & weather many storms .. Its just that ones patience is tested and whats reqd is the resolve to be firm and withstand all storms whatever may come in life .. Believe me thats what helps a person grow up in life .. situations and some events make a person grow up early and thats what has helped me .. grow up in my thoughts , responsibilities ..

Though it feels too bad to see a loved one go through so much of suffering .. but like they say .. if u r destined to go through something we will have to go through the grind no matter how much we try to ..

Best way out of this is to take things as and when they come .. and then accordingly fight them out ..

Will close it here .. Looking forward to Delhi trip .. on King FHISHER .. Lets c how that goes ..

Will be away to delhi from wednesday till sunday 17th .. Will blog again once i am back

Till then ciao ..

My Identity

2007-12-02T12:56:00.000+05:30

Hi Friends,

Been quite some time since i wrote anything .. Have been TOO BUSY especially since college ended and then had issues with work and other stuff.. Just trying to get things managed since pressure both on deliverables at work & at college is TOO HIGH. Now coming back to my BLOG.

I finally got a piece of my Identity .. My Voter Card .. Though theres no BIG deal in getting a CARD .. Still getting a card in which my name is SPELLED right in ANGREZI while in MARATHI its the same old WRONG NAME .. :(. Could not help .. Government anarchy will never let this country prosper ..

Hopefully now next time around .. should be able to use this LEGALLY acquired card which should help in further elections and also serve as a proof for other stuff.

Lets c when i get it USE it for the first time ..

Kolkata - Rocked !!!

2007-11-13T20:31:00.000+05:30

Hi
Before you guys start reading this. Read the earlier post, and only then start reading this one .. This starts from where i last ended.

I reached prashants place pretty late. Was feeling too bad keeping his family waiting for me till 9:45 for dinner. Got delayed in office with work as i had to wrap up quite a few urgent things .. Then also spent some time sitting and booking my ticket for OSO. Will be giving my review on the movie later in the post. Don't Jump there now .. Go with the flow ..

Now coming to Diwali , Nothing special as such. Was in Kolkata miles away from home. Got up at 7am , had a bath & remembered Mom and God. Had nothing much scheduled till the nite when i was to view the movie Om Shanti Om so decided to go out and have a good visit of Kolkata. Started the day by going on a visit in the Metro. Went both sides End to end .. The metro is clean, spacious and well ventilated. Since it was the winter dont think we will feel the need for AC but in the summers think it will be a tough time. In delhi though the metro is totally ac and a reason its too costly. Kolkata was cheap on that grounds.. The journey was also pleasant .. Visited howrah .. Too dirty compared to Kolkata and also very congested .. then came back via the ferry during which time i was able to take snaps of the rabindra setu the old bridge on Howrah. Then visited the old kolkata side especially Victoria. Victoria was quite a huge estate full of greenery and some good architecture as well. The museum was a good experience especially the paintings.

Do check my snaps which i have uploaded on google.

http://picasaweb.google.com/anantha.bhaktha/KolkataTrip?authkey=4-cSOzafug0

Do Take some time to check them .. Then in the evening after my long rounds of roaming the victoria came back to my hotel room and dashed off to bed. Was too tired and thankfully got up at 9pm in time for my date with OSO.

The movie was in Inox just bang opposite my hotel .. so not much time to go .. Hope Skip & Jump.

Now coming to OSO, Shahrukh Rocked .. I know many ppl wud say the movie is a normal everyday type drawing heavily from other movies of the time esp Karz .. Still for a normal movie goer like me , the movie was gr8 though .. Deepika also comes out very well .. In the first half as the demure Shanti Priya who gives up everything for the love of her life .. Who in the end betrays her for money .. The movie has its hsare of highs & lows .. and could have been better and much shorter .. The songs r good and quite catchy .. OK (SRK) is good .. The movie has everything in it for a normal moviegoer .. Masala , suspense , romance , thrills etc . My advice .. Go & c for once .. Its much better than Saawariya.

Now post the movie came back at 1 am and dashed off to bed .. Will post my saturday schedule and sunday plans laters .. till then happy reading ..

Have to cut this short as i am too sleepy .. havent had good sleep for long ..

Take care

City of Joy - Kolkata

2007-11-08T20:30:00.000+05:30

Hi

before I start on this post, let ,me wish all of you a Happy Diwali & a Prosperous New Year. May all your Dreams & Wishes come true this season. I am not in town hence could not call you guys, Will surely call all personally once i am back in Mumbai on Sunday.

Hmm now coming to my post, I am spending my Diwali this year in Kolkata the City of Joy. Though i have heard a lot about this city, yet to see much of it. Reached yest nite 7th pretty late around 8, by which time it was pitch DARK. The sun sets earlier in the east by an Hour that is so by the time its a good nice evening in gud ol mumbai, Its pitch dark in Kolkata. I had a pretty good flight, though my journey as such was not good. Had a few altercations with a friend before i boarded the flight (all result of week long animosity), plus coupled with the fact that i was unwell, down with fever made things worse (She did not know this). Had a good breakfast aboard Jet, and my flight Finally landed at 8pm IST. Was a smooth Journey and there i was waiting i n the line to be among the first to land down the plane which ferried me about 2,500 kms from my gud ol Mumbai. Hmm as luck had it , The landing in kolkata is through the Aerobridge which meant that there was only one exit & so from being amongst the first to get down i was amongst the last to get down :(. The jouney from the Exit after bidding goodbye to the beautiful lovely airhostesses who took nice care seemed to be never ending. I kept on walking n walking n walking to no end. The lane was full of turns and turns followed by long corridors.

Finally after a nice exercise of walking i reached the conveyor belt where started my eager wait for the arrival of my baggage. Thankfully that came out soon and i was happy with glee without realising much that another long wait awaited me further. Had heard a lot about the Cabs & the looting which happens ( Not robbery but overcharging) that i was told u r better off taking a Pre-paid cab than a Taxi from outside. Initially the line seemed to be a small one but with the pace at which it started moving , it seemed pretty long. Just made me felt that if this is the first experience i have in this city what is there in store for me. It took me about 30 mts to get to my turn and then finally get the taxi receipt. While this was all going on , during my wait i started pondering around .. Not many good females in sight .. so got bored again .. then saw something which made me realise that this city moves too slow. Even after having waited in the line for 20 mts & have landed 30 minutes ago, the arrival status of the flights showed my flight 9w-211 as still EXPECTED. Too long a gestation period i period. !!

Finally i started searching for my Cab searching through long lanes to find the cab in the end of a long line in a corner from the airport. Believe the Kolkata airport guys need to come to Mumbai to take lessons from the GMR people on how to spruce the airport & its facilities. My first impression once i came to the arrival hall was .. WHERE THE HELL AM I ?? It was a culture shock for me. Think there are much better airports in smaller locations than what i saw. Hmm finally my journey into Kolkata started and to kill time i started having a chat with the Cab Driver. All cabs in Kolkata are yellow AMBIS (Ambassadors) , the only place i believe in India where one finds so many Ambis on the road. The journey initially was good with not much on traffic. As our journey progressed and out talks started got to know about how hard life is. Just made me think is this really the CITY OF JOY. The cab driver was in this business for the last 7 years. He was a Jute mill worker whose owner had declared a lockout. Not wanting his family to starve to death and to earn a means of living he started with driving Ambis. Since most of his life was spent in the Mill industry his practical experience was limited which made him resort to this in the end, after having treied his hands at quite a few other trades.

Got to speak with him for about 45 minutes and by the end of the journey was completely shakken from my image of the city. My friend Vidya had warned me that the City is a very dirty one and a place where her dad will never let her go to. To me it was pretty decent and less filthy. The talk i had wid the driver made me think quite a lot on the way leaving me dumbfounded for some time. Though i knew always such things do happen, got to meet someone whos living through the hardships and has come over it. His mill was closed by the owners citing it was a big loss making unit while in reality it was making pretty good profits. One more reason for the closure he explained was the fact that the Mill was seating on huge piece of REAL ESTATE - A HOT SELLING & PRECIOUS COMMODITY whose supply is too limited. I just wondered WHAT THE BLOODY HELL WERE THE F***** COMMUNISTS DOING WHEN THE MILL CLOSED DOWN. Then he said there were least bothered for all this, all that mattered to them was MONEY and nothing else.

In the end after crissdoing and going through numerous lanes, I finally reached my nesting place for the week Allenby Inn. Oops .. Forgot to mention, along the way i saw busses whiich shocked me more. They were half the size of our BEST busses and had twice the no of people packed in like lifestock being transported in a closed truck. Later on i picked up a long lost friend of mine Prashant Venkatramani after along period of 9 years. He was with me in school and a very good friend of mine. had a chat till we reached the hotel. Once in the hotel we got to discuss about whats happened in our lives & our current status in life. After chatting for some time, he decided to leave and i had a nice walk with him half down the lane till the main road after which i came back to have dinner. Life shuts down in Kolkata very sooon with most restaurants in the place where i am staying - Elgin Road shutting down at 10:30 pm. had a nice dinner and then went off to sleep by around 12 after checking on what was happening on the current affairs and news as well d senSEX. Hmm finally had a good night sleep which finally ended at 6:30 am. I just opened the curtains and rubbed my eyes twice to see if the time on my watch was right. It was so bright outside that i literally checked my time twice on my wrist watch and my Mobile since i could not believe what i saw. It was so bright at that time like it is in Mumbai around 7:30 - 8pm. realisation drawn on me later that i ws in kolkata where the sun rose earlier & also set down earlier.

Thats all for now, going to prashants place for dinner so need to go to the hotel , Freshen up and rush to his place.

Do go through this and in case u feel like also leave your comments. I hope i dont bore you much with my posts which more so these dayd tend to be a bit longer than i initially plan ..

Will try to click some snaps of the city when i decide to go out tomorrow on Diwali day. need to visit the Ganges that flows through the city and also the World famous Howrah Bridge.

That all Friends .. Will post about my day and dinner hopefully on saturday in case i manage to take some time out or on Sunday night or Monday once i am back home.

Till then Wishing all happy Diwali & a Prosperous New Year. I hope all of us have a gr8 year ahead full of Joy , Good Luck & Prosperity.

Ciao .. Have a Blast :)

Long Sojourn

2007-11-04T22:25:00.000+05:30

Hi

Been a long sojourn for me. Been too occupied with work & college exams wreaking havoc on my life. Thankfully got leave from office so atleast this time around i am managing to scrape through with my papers .. Also since this was the first time i got to serious learning after 6 long years .. The initial learnings were tough .. But slowly .. got into it .. Made some silly mistakes .. of skipping topics which were important and came in the exam .. But in the end believe will manage to scrape through without any major hiccups.

Btw coming back to my blog, quite a few people commented that Why do my Blogs always have to be so SAD :(. I never intended it to be that way but believe happening of many unfortunate events led to my all my emotions coming out at the same time making it look a bit sad one. Now that i have got on to the bandwagon called LIFE will be writing more on the Cheerful happenings of my life .. rather than the sad ones .

Will try and now regularly update the blog atleast once a week if not twice a week. Have a pretty hectic week again. I will be out of mumbai travelling on official work to Kolkata. Will be spending Divali in Kolkata this time around.

Will get down to updating this blog if possible during the week or post my return from Kolkata.

Till then Amigos .. Ciao .. Wish you all Happy Divali and a prosperous New Year ahead.

Cheers .. Ananth !!!

2007-10-14T22:52:00.000+05:30

Hi
Been abt 2 weeks since i updated my blog .. Lots of things have happened since then that i am not sure what all to put in here. With exams also looming large on head like a Damocles sword not sure how to make ends meet ,, Still i am sure will manage both pretty well .. ie : Work & Studies.

Now coming to what i was to write .. The last week has been a good as well as a bad one .. Start of the week i had my mid-term appraisal wherein i was badly rammed .. quite expected & i have now taken steps on what i have been told to do. On other have been happy i have been able to become much good friends with ppl. I cant name her here against my principle of maintaining confidentiality of my friends & whatever they discuss / confide in me. Believe Trust is something which is tough to maintain, esp when someone is sharing their personal issues & life with me.

While discussing on some issues with her i found out things are still the same as they were in many respects that they were earlier. While speaking on various issues affecting us we came across one thing, both of us have our close relatives whose marriages have broken down and they have been for factors other than which we normally get to see. In both the cases the marriages were arranged ones. In my case it was a US match while in my friends case it was a local match. What was shocking was the fact that the guys to break the marriage gave the reason for break-up as " Not being Good in BED". Not sure what to tell ? I was shocked when she told me this .. I mean never did i imagine that when things go bad ... people will stoop to any levels to malign their partners so that they get out of the relationship. This is also one reason one finds these days a lot of stuff online , especially personal pics of couples..

The first thing one does after a breakup is malign the other person to such an extent that he / she will never think of raising their voice again.

Will be cutting this short since i have my exams starting from tomorrow , so cant spend much time online .. will surely get some time and write more .. to complete this ..

thanks for the time & patience ..

Coping up with Loss - My Story

2007-10-07T23:07:00.000+05:30

Hi

Been contemplating long to write on this and a host of other issues .. Have been running too short of time these days with pressure building in office (Midterm appraisal happening) and also the fact my 1st semester MBA has been coming to a close. Exams start from 22nd of this month & the pace at which lectures are running not sure if we will be able to finish all before the exams.

Now cutting the deviation , I am getting back to what i wanted to write.

For every individual, the loss of a closed relative is something which no one can ever fill. The vacuum that's left is something which no one can every fill. I am writing what i have gone through to try & overcome the grief and also how I am living my life now ..

I lost my mother on the 9th of August this year. She expired unexpectedly due to cardiac arrest. She was recuperating well & was in the pink of her health ready to come back home to Mumbai from where she had left 4 months ago in April to get herself operated for her various ailments. The news of her death was the worst news i ever had in my life. I had spoken with mom 2 days ago (7th aug) for around 30 mts on a lot of issues. All that she told me during the discussion was she was getting well fast so that she could come back home cook & feed me with her own hands, something which she had not done for the past 4 months. Last time she fed me was the time she was operated in may & when during her subsequent recovery i was by her side for 25 days in the hospital. The first thought that ran across my mind was will i be able to see her face for the last time. Mom expired @ 1:35 and i got the news by 2:15, too late for me to even try & catch a flight to mangalore (Last flite was at 2) from where i could proceed to udupi. In the evening I went to bangalore & then proceeded to udupi via road. Some people say its during such times of crisis that we get to know who our true friends are .. I am fortunate enough to have a extremely supporting and caring boss & office colleagues & also the fact that my friends in college (welingkars) and outside were the first ones who called me. Even before i left and also during my discussion with Poo who had come to the airport to meet me I decided I will not breakdown. For my Dad and my brother i was the only support who could ensure that they did not break down. More so for dad as he had been living in udupi with mom ever since we took her there in April and also in whose arms mom had her last breath. My Brother was next to mom when she passed away. I sometimes still dread thinking of all that's happened. I reached home on time and started with the rituals immediately. BY 8 we had moms corpse brought from the hospital and by 9 we reached the crematorium. The only time i cried was when i lighted moms pyre. It was then that the loss actually struck me and realisation dawned on me that Mom will never be back again. I cried for a long time, till such time i believe i emptied all that i had been controlling in my heart ever since i got to know of her demise.

Once i reached home i also made another resolve, Never will i ever feel sad / cry for Mom. Not that i did not love her, but for the fact that me breaking down will leave me with no support to take care of Dad & brother both of whom were too shaken by moms demise, and till date i haven't cried after that. Also one more thing was, I always knew mom did not want me to be gloomy. She always told me that i always be happy no matter whether shes alive or not. MY resolve then was to ensure that all the values she had inculcated in me and hardship that she went through to bring us to where we are will never go waste. I will always ensure that i live up to all that she wanted me to. This is the least i can do for mom.

To overcome this grief & loss, i turned to spiritual route. My Family has been quite moderately religious. Compared to me my dad & brother as well as mom were more religious. Dad also gets the oracle of our family deity Shree Mahalasa Narayani. This is the reason i stopped eating non veg around 7-8 yrs ago. Though things have been tough for all of us especially the last few months, All i can say is the going is much better for me now.

I have been staying practically alone in mumbai. All i was told when i was leaving for mumbai by the oracle was i should continue my rituals daily and she will ensure that no harm comes to me. One more thing that i have started doing is meditating with the Gayatri Mantra and my kuldevta's mool mantra. A Meditation for as small as 10 mts helps in cooling down a person and also helps me feel better.

What i said above has worked for me , though not sure whether it will work for all.

In the last lecture we had a wonderful time being spent in the class in the end due to the relaxation session taken by our Ob prof, Prof Venkat Iyer, a Gem of a person especially on issues related to people.

In the session i came across moms face a no of times which i believe was also the case with a few of my other friends who also have lost their parent. This is one loss which can as i earlier said "Never be filled".
Even now when i sleep at night (I stay alone), i sometimes do wake up in the middle of the night post which its tough to get sleep. My only resort now is meditation with the two mantras i have and that has led to a very peaceful life for me . Things have also been going good for me on the work front .. Keeping fingers crossed till the next list for promotion which is due by the month end is released.

In case you actually manage to have the patience to read through all of this, Thanks .. I had this for long in me & i believe Blogging & writing on issues affecting me is one way i can at least lighten myself.

Have lots of things to post on but don't know when i will be doing that. Running too tight on time. I will mostly be posting next on some personal issues - Marriage & breakdown of the institution of marriage. Things which i have seen from very close quarters.

Till then Happy Blogging .. God Bless All :-)